Emotional roller coaster.

[BJP56]

are times I am happy and stable and then there are times I am depressed and sad around my GF. I cant find any other relief other than wanting to be close to her. She will ask me whats is wrong and I cant seem to open up as to why I feel like that.

 

Sometimes its brought on by knowing she will be leaving for grad school, and me having to stay behind. Sometimes I cant deal with not being able to find another significant other. She has witnessed this several times with me, and I am wondering if theres something off emotionally with me?

 

This is something that should not bother me, and for some odd reason it is, its not serious yet, we are both free to see other people as we both wish, we are not exclusive. I would not know how we both can make it exclusive.

[learning_slowly]

From the sounds of it you're young and you're holding on to a weird relationship, hoping it's something more.

 

"Non-exclusive" sounds strangely like you don't really have anything significant.

 

I would get it all out in the open. Say you want to be exclusive. But as she is going away, you would need to find a job near her school as LDR's are a waste of life. It's too little contact, so it's easy to stray.

 

As you seem to need her a lot more than her you, you have to be prepared for her to say no, and move on to somebody where you can be an equal.

 

Good luck