Author Mary Oak Posted June 13, 2014 Author Share Posted June 13, 2014 So, it's my birthday. Yippee! I did treat myself to a massage which was wonderful My ex emailed me and said she didn't know I was going to be out of the office today and left my card on my desk. She said to have a happy birthday etc. I wrote back and said thank you and that I wanted to take this time to tell her how grateful for the time we had together I was and that she taught me so much about living. I told her may God continue to bless you and to take care. She responded that my words were kind but she couldn't take credit for it and that the greatness was always within me. She said she thought of me often, way more than I would ever know and that I was a part of her, her heart and her soul. I wrote back (I know I shouldn't have) but I said thank you for making so many of my birthdays special. That I hope I would never forget those times and that I think of her too. No response. Figured. I just love her so much and I feel so vulnerable today. She is such an incredible woman and I want her back so bad, though I know that is not in the cards. Just sucks and I am sad. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Mary Oak Posted June 13, 2014 Author Share Posted June 13, 2014 Back to Nc.... Again!!!! It was so good to hear from her but hurts more I thought I could still hurt. Will I ever get over her? Will I ever stop loving her? I can't believe I screwed up something like that. Sucks. Link to post Share on other sites
BC1980 Posted June 14, 2014 Share Posted June 14, 2014 Back to Nc.... Again!!!! It was so good to hear from her but hurts more I thought I could still hurt. Will I ever get over her? Will I ever stop loving her? I can't believe I screwed up something like that. Sucks. If I may offer some advice, I really think you need to ask her not to contact you. It's very nice that she gave you the birthday card and sent the kind thoughts, but it's not helping your recovery. I know that my ex did some similar things, and I had to ask him to stop contacting me. My ex sent me a birthday gift and a card on what would have been our anniversary. It messed with my head because I wanted him back. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Mary Oak Posted June 17, 2014 Author Share Posted June 17, 2014 I know I need to tell her not to contact me anymore, but I really think this will be the last time for a while. There is nothing coming up for her to contact me about. WHen I got back to work, I had a nice birthday card with a leather bracelet in it. The words on the birthday card with nothing but friendly. I told her thank you. SHe wrote me back, but nothing of substance. Then yesterday, we had a problem with the joint bank account we had. It was supposed to be closed and it hasn't, so we had to talk about that. But, it was all business. She is out of work today, I am thinking her sister is having her baby. I was driving around this morning, and I thought to myself, "why can't we just put this behind us, and live the life we were meant to. Just laugh again, and be happy." My answer is sad but true... she is laughing and being happy, just not with me. I would give anything to stop thinking about her. Last night was bad. I usually don't wake up in the night thinking about her anymore, but last night all I could think of is her and her gf cuddling, while I lay alone. I could feel her against me... Sad is a hard emotion to work with... Link to post Share on other sites
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