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MajorDisaster

erm..this is my first and probly last thread erm..i have no one esle and when i found this site i thought it mite be able to sort my head out. sorry if its a bit patchy im new to this and not very smart as u will probly notice when u read on.

 

erm.. where do i start? i dunno i didnt no wat thread to put this in erm..i start off wit the basics erm..im pretending to be a guy on the internet and fallen in love wit a girl. erm..its kinda weird typing it out and i know im sick in the head it kinda just started out as joke on cartoon chatrooms i just wanted to see wats it like to be a GUY and it was fun at first then i met MEL and we talked and share experinces mine were mostly trueful but twisted and i just feel so close to her i just sit and wait for her and its so sad the way i feel.

 

Im 17.f.uk and i live in london and MEL lives in usa and is 17,f,usa and doesnt no who i really am. im pretendin to be 17,m,uk i met her when i was about 9-10 months ago and its not gettin any easyer to tell her.

 

erm..i think i have alot of problems. But its coming to a point were its gettin to serious shes talkin about her saving herself for me and visiting me and i got one pic of guy i dont even now and used that when she wanted to see me.

shes offered her own money for me to see her and the other way round.

 

im not to sure how to end it? do i tell her or just go, in the begin she talked alot about hurting her self and that kinda thing im not sure wat to do and being so close to valentines day im not sure if i can just leave plus i cant get rid of the email address and im always tempted to chat to her i know i will.

 

and does fallin in love with girl make me gay? lol i shouldnt laugh but it just sounds so stupid see i havent got a clue i always been lil uncomfortable about gays not alot but i just think that was me being affraid of the truth even tho i find guys and sum gurls attractive.

 

so if u got any addvice or just somthing to help i would be verygrateful

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I dont know what advice to give you. And I can't even tell you what a hurtful thing you've done. Ring her up. NOW. Tell her the truth. And learn from this.

 

What a terrible thing to do.

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MajorDisaster

i know it make's me feel so sick inside thinking of wat i done im so stupid and selfish and its to late, ive gotten into deep and its not just a joke anymore.

 

the thing is who do i tell do i trust sumone wit this? or do i just keep it to my self? im scared of the reaction im gonna get. from both mel or who eva i tell. its hard coz i have nobody.

 

i fill like im some kinda pshyco and need help i dont now wat to do? i wanna tell her so bad but i worried of wat she may do to her self.

 

when i talk to her i just become sumbody esle.

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The first and only person you need to tell is HER. And get over yourself if you think she may harm herself over you. You're lucky if she doesn't try to harm YOU. You owe her the truth.

 

Stop making excuses for yourself. You know that you need to come clean. The Shack isn't going to absolve you of any guilt.

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i know the shack wont get rid of my guilt i just needed questions answered or at least a clue wat to do

i supose if i love her that much i should tell her rite?

 

the problem is were do i start? how do i explain?

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i just told her everything and i fill worse then i was before her reaction was cool and wants to be mates is that

weird? or am i ova reacting? im so coonfused

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