Soundsystem00 Posted May 1, 2014 Share Posted May 1, 2014 Okay. I thought all I needed to be happy in life was a girl. I found a girl who I loved very much. But as I got to know her, I realized she was not the one. I ended up getting my heart broken. This was about 2 months ago. My dad told me that after 2 months, I would start to feel better. I do not. I am very depressed. Since then, i have had 2 one-night-stands. I didn't seek them, they more or less just happened. Do I feel accomplished about it? Hell no. I feel depressed and alone. As a human being, I long for companionship.. But is it more than that? Shouldn't I be happy alone first, and allow the right girl to come along? Or will I be waiting for 10 years? I have noticed the harder I look, the farther they get, and when I stop looking, they come to me. Either way, I'm done looking. That doesn't change the fact that I feel empty and alone. I sleep all day ( when im not working of course ) and have a hard time even leaving the house. Why? I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful job with wonderful people, am having more success with my art then I ever have in my life, and I am getting more gigs DJing than ever before. But I still find a way to dwell on the negative. WTF is wrong with me? Am I spiritually sick or something? I keep telling myself to go get a gym membership to improve my mental health, but that has been for years. I never will do it. I am getting a new tattoo. if that helps.. sorry for the rant. Anyone understand? Anyone get me? -matt:love: Link to post Share on other sites
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