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i have been busy living lately, except today... its raining and i can't work

 

i did let her contact me, she always has contacted me

 

some people say its to keep me on the backburner but i don't think so and i wouldn't have that

 

trouble is i still fancy the pants of her and i think she does of me too

 

i'm considering phoning her tonight to see what she wants

 

she said it would be good to have a talk ( whatever thats about )

 

don't worry i'm going to be cool but honest with her

 

thanks for the hug

 

btw i don't play pc games anymore... too old!

 

sigh!

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also forgot to mention she told me just that day ( Saturday ) she reread my letter i sent her shortly after our breakup

 

why did she reread this and why did she keep it?

 

this was a good few months ago... near christmas!

 

help!

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well ex just phoned me there... can't believe we talked for 1 1/2 hours

 

i don't feel worse after the conversation though and maybe it has done me good?

 

we talked about everything, it was quite lighthearted even though we did talk about our relationship, we even had a good laugh

 

we admitted that we missed each other desperately and said we were never as intimate with anyone else as much ( for my case true and i think from her side true also )

 

i told her amongst other things that she was ridicuously high maintenance and pointed out how i did treat her well ( i also said to her that i had things i could have worked on and would have done to make her happier )... thing is she admitted to most of what i said

 

i asked her how easy i was to be with and she said that i was really led back and so easy to get on with and I should find somebody like me instead of her ( DECLARATION OF NEVER COMING BACK )

 

she kept bringing up the subject of how good our sex life was and how she missed it and she asked me did i miss it? what is this about? i have never had this talk from an ex before! usually this is out of bounds! u know?

 

although she brought up the subject of when we meet each other when we are with others! HORROR!

 

i told her that i think that both of us couldn't handle such a situation, she said that it would hurt her like hell but that she would still want to speak to me... i told her that i probably wouldn't be able to do this so that she would be warned

 

we left the phonecall with 'what do we do next?' 'do we still call each other or wait until we see one another'

 

i told her in a way i wish i never was her lover because i would have loved her as a friend as it is so hard to let her go

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