The effects of trying to kill yourself..

[DanielStone]

Long story shot, I tried to commit suicide by cutting my neck open.. It's been a long time coming.

 

I'm currently seeking professional help for this as I was sectioned and pretty much forced into it but there's a problem I need help with now!

 

I was with a few friends when I got a little too drunk, slid out the back door and did it, they found me after the police / ambulance were called... Now all of them are cancelling plans they had with me, not including me in new plans, not talking to me and cut me out all together... Now I truly have no one and don't know how to make this right with them.. Someone, please! Help me out here..

[d0nnivain]

They probably just don't know what to say to you.

 

 

Have you tried reaching out to them & telling them that you are sorry for scaring them & that you are getting help?

 

 

I am so sorry you felt so low you wanted to try this but I am glad you are getting help now.

[DanielStone]

They probably just don't know what to say to you.

 

 

Have you tried reaching out to them & telling them that you are sorry for scaring them & that you are getting help?

 

 

I am so sorry you felt so low you wanted to try this but I am glad you are getting help now.

 

I can't even begin to tell you how many times I've apologised but today when I found out they're still going to things they "cancelled" ... I just know they hate me for it and I don't know what to do...

 

One of them, man she was running through my head when I was in the hospital and after it happened thought she would be the one to keep me alive, to keep me from wanting to hurt her again but now she's gone and so are the rest of them.. I'm lost.

[d0nnivain]

It may simply take time. Talk to your therapist about this. that person may be able to help you build the right external support group because it's not these people.

[Haydn]

Mate, They are scared. When you tried to do the old `weeping willows`. they just had no idea. Donnie is right. Apologise. Keep therapy going and don`t look back. It is an incident in your life. Learn and move from it. Sure you can.

[littleplanet]

Agree with all above responders.

Seriously - consider what a true "friend in need" actually is.

Surround yourself with people who actually care about you.

One............is an excellent number to start with.

 

I've been there, dude. (Long ago and far away.)

And now I'm just little characters to read on a screen.....................

- but that's certainly not all I am.

Nor will you be, as time goes by.

Look after yourself - not fairweather friends.

Consider all the things that led you to that irrational act. Weigh it out. Treat it with the utmost respect.

A little more self-respect is what you're after.

Be cool. You'll get there.

[gaius]

I remember when I was in high school and it got out one of the girls went off to the mental hospital. Things were never the same for her socially once she got back. Luckily she had one good female friend who stuck by her and yelled at me when she heard me make a comment about it.

 

All I can suggest is to find new friends. Ones who are more sympathetic.

[pureinheart]

Long story shot, I tried to commit suicide by cutting my neck open.. It's been a long time coming.

 

I'm currently seeking professional help for this as I was sectioned and pretty much forced into it but there's a problem I need help with now!

 

I was with a few friends when I got a little too drunk, slid out the back door and did it, they found me after the police / ambulance were called... Now all of them are cancelling plans they had with me, not including me in new plans, not talking to me and cut me out all together... Now I truly have no one and don't know how to make this right with them.. Someone, please! Help me out here..

 

(((((((hugs))))))) Please stick with the IC/counseling. I'm not sure of your age, although MANY times in my life for many reasons I've changed "groups" of friends. The one that comes closest to your situation would be during a divorce that got really messy. People took sides and banished me. Whatever. It felt uncomfortable at first, yet understandable and better for me in the long run. It was a collective decision from this group and I'd bet there was a "leader".

 

I don't want people in my life that are easily swayed- I will mess up eventually and will do something that someone doesn't like.

 

Give it time. You've apologized and IMO there's nothing more you can do except to move on. I know this seems like "the end" of your social life, but it isn't. Take this time to fix you and I promise you there will be another "group" that will enter your life.

 

I agree with Gaius, find new friends or let them find you.

[almond]

I am very sorry to hear about what you are going through, and I strongly encourage you to stick with your treatment. Commit yourself 110% to getting well again, and putting all of your energy into improving your life and mental state. If you feel that your doctor/psych isn't the best for you, please do not hesitate to look around for one that you feel suits you better. Do whatever it takes, but do not give up. I truly am sorry to hear about your pain...it can get better, truly.

 

Re: the social issue..I really feel for you, but I also feel for your friends. You were at a party, walked outside and slashed open your own neck. It would have been quite traumatic for your friends to see you sitting/standing/lying there, with a knife, bleeding from the throat. I am sure they are experiencing a range of feelings and emotions right now, ranging from sympathy and worry, to confusion and even possibly anger. As someone else said, they probably don't even know what to say to you right now. I imagine it was a pretty full on scene and sadly, all the apologies in the world won't be able to erase that image.

 

This is pretty heavy stuff, and sometimes, it is just too much for others (especially if they weren't close to you) to take on. After the shock and trauma, it is somewhat understandable that they made need some space and time to process it all. Sure, ideally they would be able to rally around and support you through such a horrible time, but unfortunately, this is not always the case. They are not doing this out of spite or to punish you, but as I said, sometimes this stuff is just too heavy for some.

 

Focus on yourself, and rely on family and any friends you do have for support. Attend all appointments and communicate with your doctors as much as possible - you and your doctors are a team, use all the tools available to you to fix yourself. Others can only assist, you must do this for yourself. Once you are happy and healthy, this will all be a distant memory. Friends come and go, believe me. Right now, your priority is your mental health, keep your eye on the prize, and as much as losing a friendship group sucks, try and maintain your focus on getting well and living a happy, healthy life. After this, everything else will all fall into place.

 

Good luck. Steer clear of alcohol for a very long time.