FloridaCracker Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 (edited) We've been friends since we were in the first grade and we were each other's first kiss at the age of 8. Growing up, she was always flirty towards me and we could barely look at each other in the eyes without blushing and smiling. We were always together... going over to each other's houses, talking on the phone everyday and doing things together. We would talk about getting married to each and what we would name our kids. I knew that she liked me but I was always too coward to tell her I liked her back though. People used to say we we're the perfect couple even though we weren't officially together. It was in the spring of 2010, after her 17th birthday that I realized that I was in love her. I started to distance myself from her a little bit because I was scared that she didn't love me back and was scared of what would happen to us. After I went away for college in 2011, she got herself a boyfriend for whom she was with for eight months. Even when she with that guy, she used to message me telling me she missed me & couldn't wait to see me again. In late 2012, she got another boyfriend & was with him for four months. I moved back early last year, so we did some stuff together. She still seemed flirty towards me & a friend of hers told me she liked me but I was STILL too coward. Then jump to May of this year, she met someone at her work, and now, two months later, they're engaged. I have a feeling that she got tired of waiting around on me, just moved on and now I'm regretting it. I feel really heartbroken over this and I'm not going to lie, I have cried a few times. I thought the current guy she was with would just be another short-term thing like all of her past boyfriends. I didn't think in a million years that they'd get engaged so frickin' soon. I messaged her a few days ago telling her that I had something important to tell her in person but she said she doesn't think her boyfriend would appreciate us doing that. So I just snapped back and told her to forget it. She replied back saying that she was sorry, that she loves the guy and doesn't want to ruin anything at this point with him and then she asked me about what I wanted to tell her pertained to. Deep down, I just want to write her a long message telling her my true feelings towards her. On the other hand, I wonder if I should just leave her alone and never tell her that I'm in love with her. I guess I'm just scared of what might happen and her reaction. I don't even know if she feels the same way about me back! It could all just be in my head. I mean, we've been friends all these years and this is what the end result is???? Because of some guy she's been with and has known for two whole months?! I feel frustrated, hurt, confused and upset all at the same time! She is the girl that I want to marry and spend the rest of my life. It has ALWAYS been her and only her, ever since we were in elementary school, I've felt like this. Edited July 11, 2014 by FloridaCracker Link to post Share on other sites
d0nnivain Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 Do not pour your heart out now that she's engaged. This isn't the movies. She will not fall into your arms. Link to post Share on other sites
KaliLove Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 Dude..you have absolutely no right to be hurt by this. It's your own fault that you were too chicken to make a move, not hers, and not her fiances. Truth be told, it's unlikely that this engagement will culminate in a marriage, and if it does, it's unlikely that the marriage will last very long. But still..leave her alone. She's happy..do not ruin it for her. Link to post Share on other sites
Targetlock Posted July 11, 2014 Share Posted July 11, 2014 you were both waiting for something that never came namely you taking a shot years ago. if you truly care for your friend you will not ruin their happiness and will move on though of course that will be hard Link to post Share on other sites
Author FloridaCracker Posted July 13, 2014 Author Share Posted July 13, 2014 Do not pour your heart out now that she's engaged. This isn't the movies. She will not fall into your arms. I know although I wish it was. Dude..you have absolutely no right to be hurt by this. It's your own fault that you were too chicken to make a move, not hers, and not her fiances. Truth be told, it's unlikely that this engagement will culminate in a marriage, and if it does, it's unlikely that the marriage will last very long. But still..leave her alone. She's happy..do not ruin it for her. I know and her happiness with him is why I've hesitated to message her back thus far. you were both waiting for something that never came namely you taking a shot years ago. if you truly care for your friend you will not ruin their happiness and will move on though of course that will be hard I know. I had an epiphany yesterday, started to accept what is going on and hoped I could finally start to move on. But then I had a dream about her last night and woke up in tears, now I feel depressed. I'm thinking I'm just going to message her telling her maybe it'd be best if we weren't friends anymore. I'm just waiting around and hoping for something that will never come. Link to post Share on other sites
Targetlock Posted July 13, 2014 Share Posted July 13, 2014 yeah probably a good idea, will give you some closure and allow you to move on. it will hurt of course but in the end probably the best plan of action. Link to post Share on other sites
Author FloridaCracker Posted July 16, 2014 Author Share Posted July 16, 2014 yeah probably a good idea, will give you some closure and allow you to move on. it will hurt of course but in the end probably the best plan of action. Well I messaged her asking her what will happen with our friendship and she asked me back "what do you mean"? Don't know what to say from here... Link to post Share on other sites
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