Chrissy21 Posted February 21, 2005 Share Posted February 21, 2005 For the past year and a half I have often came to this forum to help me find answers to my questions. And more often than not I have used this forum to find other women in the same situation as I. Not so much to help me as just to validate in my mind that what I was doing was somehow right. Of course, two years later after being involved with a married man, I now know all the right answers-and none of those led to him. As a scorned lover I have somehow overcame my bitterness toward him and maybe came out as a better person. I am no longer bitter because he gave me something to look forward to. As a 23-year old woman I know that I have my whole life to look forward to and I will one day find that perfect man that will make everything in the past worth it. I used to say that I didn't regret being in a relationship with a married man...but now I think that if I could do it all over again...I would be a stronger person. Of course, I now have the advantage of insight that I didn't have before and that makes it much easier. I have moved on with my life from him. For two years I thought that I found the man of my dreams. I was selfish in my thoughts because I never stoppped to think that he was also the man of his wife's dreams. I hated her until one day I realized that I felt sorry for her. Even though he was the one that initiated our relationship I should have been the one to say "no." I took something away from her that she will probably never recover. Love and marriage is something that should be coveted and in this age of time it seems nobody ever stays in love anymore. I know in my heart that I truly loved him. It was something beyond my control. I felt feelings for him that I could never explain. I remember the times when I broke down and cried. He would always tell me that loves hurts. But love shouldn't hurt like that. It made me realize it was the wrong kind of love. It just took me a long time to realize that. Link to post Share on other sites
BoatingBabe Posted February 21, 2005 Share Posted February 21, 2005 chrissy, you are still young and you probably matured a lot faster because of this experience. I have to say, reading the stories in this forum has and IS preventing a huge mistake for me.... I wish you luck, these men are selfish for the most part, you'll find someone who is ALL your's. Stay strong.. Link to post Share on other sites
erika2610 Posted February 22, 2005 Share Posted February 22, 2005 Wow, I feel like I could've written that story. I felt and went through everything you just explained. When our relationship was over, it felt like the end of the world. I was just devastated. But I had noone to lean on. Everyone had turned against me, even my mother. They thought I was just horrible. What some people don't realize is that we aren't bad people. Our relationship with the MM.. although different, is just like any other in the fact that you still share the same feelings. I fell so hard for my MM. I would've dome anything for him. But I look back on it, and realize that even though a tiny tiny part of me misses him, I'm just a stronger person for getting out of it.. Link to post Share on other sites
shamen Posted February 23, 2005 Share Posted February 23, 2005 Hey Chrissy! Congratulations for being able to walk away. How are you doing? Link to post Share on other sites
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