Three of Swords Posted March 6, 2005 Share Posted March 6, 2005 Well LS peoples, I did an amazing job of acting tonight. And I really should be commended for my outstanding abilities. Setting - local restaurant/bar Event - birthday dinner Best Supporting Actress - birthday boy's girlfriend Best Supporting Actor - birthday boy Lead Actor - Unrequited Love Interest (ULI) Lead Actress- Three of Swords Plot - dinner and drinks in honour of the birthday boy requires Three of Swords and the One that She Loves (but doesn't love her back) to not only be in the same venue together, but that all characters go to her apartment afterward. During the entire drama, Three of Swords manages to maintain a civil conversation, sparked with moments of geniune laughter, all the while she is secretly pining for the ULI. During the evening, the plot further coagulates, when ULI's future plans are discussed which include a date with his new interest (this was brought up by birthday boy) and also his move to another city, far, far away from Three of Swords. F^ck! So much for NC! Not only did I have to appear light, casual and witty in a (small) group of people, but I had to listen to what this man planned on doing with his life without me. He knows how I feel about him so he quickly steered the dating conversation to something more neutral - but dam^! Back to licking freshly opened wounds that I thought were being healed (albiet slowly). I am now going to go cry. (Thanks for listening) Link to post Share on other sites
greenhorn Posted March 6, 2005 Share Posted March 6, 2005 Hey Three of Swords, I really admire your courage and strength. The way you pulled up this speaks high of the qualities that you have.If i were in your place i could not have gathered the courage to go to that party and you not only went but maintained your calm and composure. I can understand how difficult it would be for you but you have the biggest thing in you i.e. the strength which will pull you up through all the odds. Right now your all healing plan seems to be going awry but it is just one bad day and dont get too despondent due to this. I am sure of you that you would get back on the work of healing on with much more strength and vigour than before. Good Luck cheers Link to post Share on other sites
No Foolin Posted March 6, 2005 Share Posted March 6, 2005 Hey nice work........Next time find something to do right after. Do not ask for any info about them you don't want to know, otherwise a very solid effort. Watch what you say to yourself No Foolin Link to post Share on other sites
Author Three of Swords Posted March 6, 2005 Author Share Posted March 6, 2005 Today - quite simply put - I am in hell. I am however, putting one foot in front of the other to get otta their. And in the words of Oleander "I walk alone." However, I hear folks from LS (thanks Greenhorn & No Foolin) cheering from the sidelines. And somehow with your help, I will make it - I think. Originally posted by No Foolin Watch what you say to yourself No Foolin Please elaborate No Foolin B. Link to post Share on other sites
Israfil Posted March 6, 2005 Share Posted March 6, 2005 I'm cheering for you too, TOS! I am in a similar situation, so I can absolutely understand what you are going through right now. Each day has its ups and downs - you go through anger, peace, love, hate, sorrow, repulsion, revulsion, self-loathing etc. etc. Keep writing it down, talking it out. We're here for you. -Isra Link to post Share on other sites
No Foolin Posted March 7, 2005 Share Posted March 7, 2005 I read your post and you appeared very negative about how you are feeling. You did some great work at that party. Talk to yourself as if you were your own lover. You didn't fall apart, maybe shaken but you did not fall. Nothing is perfect, its gonna be messy until it is conditioned. Expect these feeling ahead of time and have a plan. Nice job. No Foolin Link to post Share on other sites
Author Three of Swords Posted March 7, 2005 Author Share Posted March 7, 2005 Thanks for rooting for me too Isra. You are right No Foolin - I do have to keep the internal negative chatter turned off. I do that negative bit all the time. (Especially saying to myself - "you are such a fool", "idiot". - blah) But I keep telling myself lately - over and over like a mantra - you will be alright, you will be alright. B. Link to post Share on other sites
purple21 Posted March 13, 2005 Share Posted March 13, 2005 Hey there girlfriend - how is it going? Been reading your posts for the last few months and I feel your pain. A few years back I had this whole requited love thing going with someone I worked with and it stunk - i just found out he got someone pregnant and got married - yuck I have a whole bunch of new man problems now - but I understand that feeling of being around someone you really like and it's not reciprocated - it totally sucks - i'm actually dealing with it again and it's hard. I would definitely give you an Oscar. I've actually pictured that situation in my head with someone I currently like in the future that might happen and how I would give an Oscar performance - blah it stinks. Keep being stong girl - you can get through this - in my experience it will eventually fade but then there is a new one - hehe - i know i'll meet someone great someday but the meantime is hard to deal with - know what i mean Link to post Share on other sites
Author Three of Swords Posted March 14, 2005 Author Share Posted March 14, 2005 Originally posted by purple21 A few years back I had this whole requited love thing going with someone I worked with and it stunk - i just found out he got someone pregnant and got married - yuck I have a whole bunch of new man problems now - but I understand that feeling of being around someone you really like and it's not reciprocated - it totally sucks - i'm actually dealing with it again and it's hard. I would definitely give you an Oscar. I've actually pictured that situation in my head with someone I currently like in the future that might happen and how I would give an Oscar performance - blah it stinks. Keep being stong girl - you can get through this - in my experience it will eventually fade but then there is a new one - hehe - i know i'll meet someone great someday but the meantime is hard to deal with - know what i mean Hey there - yeah it is very tough some days. And wow - yours sounds tougher. I am working through it though. The recovery process this time around has been alot quicker. It helped that 1 - I had a wild women weekend away in C-Town. 32 women decended upon the city. Did serious damage in the shops. We laughed, drank and danced. It was soo much fun. Most of the women were married so there weren't any men involved in the debauchery. Oh DARN!! The concierge had to ask us to keep it down. 2. - a guy at work (I know bad idea!) has suggested that we hang out together. Friday or sooner. A friend of mine told me this is the more modern term for a date? We shall see how it goes. I am soo nervous. Link to post Share on other sites
purple21 Posted March 14, 2005 Share Posted March 14, 2005 cool - sounds like you had a great weekend i've been super down this weekend and was a hermit but just made a promise to myself that i will get back on track this week and pull myself together - it's not helping anything - especially me 1 - i need a weekend like that - sounds like super fun 2 - hmm - worth a shot - i'm not one to talk about office romances though - hehe - keep us posted Link to post Share on other sites
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