Do you feel on display to the world when you goof up?

[Rock Chick]

Do you feel on display to the world when you goof up?

 

I just wondered if anyone else feels like I do. Something when I do something stupid, especially on the internet, like say I post a blog with bad information on it or upload a picture that has some problem with it, I panic because on some odds level I feel as if the whole world saw my mistake. My powerful mind starts to churn and imagine all sorts of consequences and outcomes that it's almost like I begin to believe that everyone saw my mistake and that all these things bad are going to happen. This all takes place in the moment very quickly as I'm bipolar II and these mistakes can trigger a manic episode. Usually, after time has passed I see how my actions weren't noticed by many if anyone important, and that anyone who did notice has since forgotten or forgiven, or didn't even care. I'm getting to where now I'm telling myself in the moment that no one is really seeing me and to calm down, that this will pass, that this isn't the biggest thing in the world and not that urgent, etc because I want to overcome this feeling of urgency when i make a human error.

 

I am bipolar and so I wondered if this is a symptom of my chemical imbalance or do other non-bipolar people feel as if when they make a mistake that the whole world saw it, at least at first?

Edited September 26, 2014 by Rock Chick

[d0nnivain]

Not on the internet but when I goof IRL I have difficulty accepting my mistake & working past it. I dwell & beat myself up way out of proportion to the error & it has a tendency to trigger long bouts of depression which worsen the situation.

[preraph]

We all feel like way more people are paying attention to us than they really are. Truly, hardly anyone is paying that close attention, but on the internet, it's true there may be some troll just waiting to pounce, so your fears aren't completely baseless. Just one more reason to always remain totally anonymous online.

 

I got really trolled on a board by some self-righteous person who was literally working an agenda online and was in opposition to my view. She demanded I do a bunch of research, basically akin to something you'd have to do in college, to back up my views and used heavy shaming techniques. Truth was, I'd already done that research some years ago and cited sources and everything back when MySpace was still there. And I wasn't about to do it again. When I looked up trolling methods that are common, sure enough the person who demands you do journalist-level research before stating an opinion was right there with a name for that kind of troll and everything. So instead of doing her bidding, I cited that troll research instead.

 

That was an unusual circumstance, because usually just ignoring any people who follow you around taking swipes works better than anything. Just makes them look bad and not really you. So don't worry. It's only a bunch of people with fake names after all!

Edited September 26, 2014 by preraph