Illusion24 Posted March 7, 2005 Share Posted March 7, 2005 Well... Last Friday I get a phone call from an old friend...I mean super old!!! I've known him since I was 14 and we've been friends forever...Now, the thing is is that we've always had some type of connections between us but never took it anywhere...We were both afraid of losing each other as friends...We usually talk to each other during the holidays and b-days but never long enough to make any type of relationship again...He's always been the one that got away but has he?? I'm in a beautiful relationship and I would never do anything to ruin it...I love my boyfriend and I'm extremely happy and fulfilled in every way...and no their is no but so don't expect one...I'm not confused about my relationship with my bf.... What I am wondering is why this friend is still around...We both never spoke up about our feelings towards being together but why?? Maybe he's just suppose to be there and thats it...be a good friend that he is...I know if I ever need anything he's the first I would probably call.. We have the kind of friendship where we don't have to call each other to know we're their for each other...It's one of those things where theirs such a comfort level that its incredible I wish him nothing but the best but why does he stay around??? What is that he wants with me..??? To me its an illusion he has with me "What if"...you know what I mean jelly bean...!! Link to post Share on other sites
EC Posted March 7, 2005 Share Posted March 7, 2005 Hey never say never..I have definitely been in your shoes... I was stuck fighting between the familiarity of my friend and my ex BF. The "what if" and the " Where's this going".... What I ended up realizing was that this "old friend" knew the "old" me. He knew old secrets and we shared old memories that brought a smile to my face. Like the scent of a perfume. You smell it and you get flashbacks and you smile. Thats it. I realized thats all it was. It was comfortable but if nothing ever happened in the past nothing would happen in the future. I was stuck in the illusion though and the regret of " what if" but I realized that I was in a relationship and that I had to give that a chance and if that didnt work then maybe I could find that "old friend" again. Link to post Share on other sites
greeneyedgirl23 Posted March 8, 2005 Share Posted March 8, 2005 I have many friends that i have had for years. I have had many of the same friends since kindergarten, and I am now 23. I think that it is great that this friend is in your life and wants to continue to do so. An old friend is a blessing. They have known you for years, and have loved you for who you were then, as well as the person you have become! I think you should keep this friend, Im sure your boyfriend will understand that he is the only guy for you, but not the only male friend in your life! Maybe they will become good friends as well! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Illusion24 Posted March 8, 2005 Author Share Posted March 8, 2005 I see what you saying greeneye and yes it is very comforting to know that someone has been in your life for so long and carrys many memories with you...I never have to say the story from the beginning I could start it like oh sh** remember that time I got F***ed up and I bumped my head and he would remember as if I told the story all over again with those few words... I'm also 23 and I've known him since I was 14...so he's seen me grow to a woman and he even tells me I'm the perfect girl for him...So about 4 years ago we made a promise that if we aren't married to anyone or with anyone by the age of 35 we would get together...lol About bf being friends I think he would get a little jealous at the fact that me and him have so much history and he wouldn't know half the stories we would talk about...but I know my bf doesn't it see it more than a friendship which is very relaxing to know. Link to post Share on other sites
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