I feel like I've lost touch with myself..

[ToastedHat]

I'm not sure how to actually start this off, it's complicated to explain so bare with me.

 

I was never really classed as a 'leader' growing up, usually because I was mixed in with the wrong crowd at an early age and my friends turned toxic, by high school I developed early signs of depression.

 

Around mid 2012 I got into my first relationship at the age of 17, with my new found confidence I cut all ties to my toxic friends, I was so happy with how my life was going and I had so much plans to look forward to/work for. For a good few months, I was the guy I wanted to be. Unfortunately a year on we broke up, and as I type this we've been broken up for more than a few months, we dated just under six months in total.

 

Recently just turned 19, I've found myself just lacking effort to do anything, I don't contact my friends as much as I did before, I feel at most I've lost touch with myself, like I just hold myself back these days and I really don't understand why.

[Poppyolive]

Sorry to hear you're going through tough times. From reading your post, in appears you placed your happiness and love of yourself & life on her.

 

Now she's removed from the equation, you're feeling hopeless & lossed. I believe its something everyone goes through when there has been difficult, significant changes.

 

Take this time to spend getting to know you, your goals, ambitions, things you'd like to do, places you'd like to travel to, courses, hobbies, languages to be learned.

 

Its still recent & fresh. You need to work on shifting your mood, as best you can. You could do this by writing down a gratitude list, things in your life you're grateful for, make lists of goals, new things to do & try... I'm not sure where you live, but 19 is a ripe age for traveling adventures, even solo!!! Staying in hostels, backpacking, exploring....traveling for me was where I found myself. Coming from a small village, where everyone knows everyone, I decided to take off... Some amazing life strengthening skills!!

 

Then of course, if your cloud upon your head is black, and shifting your mood is challenging, you could be going through a bout of depression, in which some help would be amazing for you.

 

Good on you for coming here, to write and share your thoughts!! Good starting place.

 

Best wishes friend.