So my aunt got engaged again today

[MrNate 2.0]

So my aunt just got engaged. Should things go well, this will be her second marriage. I want to say it's been 12 or so years since her divorce.

 

I'm very, very happy for her.

 

 

I guess I'm also worried about how my mom is taking it. She's been married for twice as long.. except for that the marriage has been anything but. Her husband got into an accident when I was four. He died twice on the way to the hospital and managed to survive, but hasn't been the same way since. Lost a lot of motor skills and was paralyzed for life.

 

She's said we've always been a big point of happiness in her life, which I can believe. However, she's also never felt more lonely. She hates it and she's told me. There's been many years of her crying at night and wondering why she deserves this. I'm sure her sister's engagement will bring some of these thoughts back.

 

I've always told her I wouldn't care if she got an annulment. (I don't know if I'm using that phrase right or not.) However, I know she probably won't do that anytime soon for fear of looking like the biggest bitch on earth. This is one of the saddest things I've seen growing up.

 

Though all in all, maybe that's why I have my own emotion/commitment issues. Growing up in a household like that will do it to you, I suppose. I guess maybe it's for the best I never do commit to anyone, seems I've been bred my whole life around the negative parts of it.

 

I'm beginning to understand myself more and more.

 

 

 

Do you really believe in till death do us part? My answer is no. Because she has been sad for the past 22 years.