sleeplessindallas Posted March 19, 2005 Share Posted March 19, 2005 I have been extraordinarily frustrated recently by several circumstances in my personal life, not the least of which was a relative I have been saddled with the burden of caring for who was slowly drifting off into dementia. It took all of my time and patience, not to mention energy, trying to deal with the medical issues and the care. The end was coming and I knew it, and this was someone I dearly loved. Although he is still alive, he is now institutionalized, something I have personally fought, alone, for three years with him in my home. It's been gut-wrenching and unbelievably frustrating, to say the least, not to mention painful. I'm not looking for sympathy, or to excuse myself for apparently snapping when advice was offered to me a while back by some good-hearted souls who meant well. I want to apologize. I am sincerely sorry for the frustration and misunderstandings that have occurred on his board because of me. Merin, you are first in line for the apology. In rereading your answer(s), now that a "cooler head prevails", I do see that you were trying to give me your take as best you could. Apparently, I have been driving this guy crazy and giving him mixed signals for at least a couple of months. He made that clear yesterday, although not entirely directly. It may be that I was inadvertently sending out mixed messages, or that I was too stupid (and I am only trying to be sincere here - I have never been too good at this because I am a tomboy and I have never thought of myself as anythig other than one of the guys) to realize what I was doing. I still don't know. Some day I may be able to ask him. I only got my life back last night and I am still a little fragile and upset, but I am trying to make some sense out of what is to come in my life, and I hope I will still be welcome here if I need to be. My thanks to all of you for your advice and friendship. Link to post Share on other sites
whichwayisup Posted March 20, 2005 Share Posted March 20, 2005 I don't know what happened, but can't see anybody holding a grudge or not wanting you to continue posting. SO post away! I will be glad to help you in any way that I can. It sometimes isn't easy hearing advice and/or reading it. I give good advice, I just don't take it well either...But it is good that you are here again. Don't be so hard on yourself though. Hope you are doing OK. Link to post Share on other sites
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