Thegrubman Posted December 3, 2014 Share Posted December 3, 2014 Honestly when I think about it everyone has been through hardships in their lives, I am not saying my situation is special, I just would like to share it! Okay so when I was 15 I was a confident, charming, and happy young man. I like to think I had the world by the "balls", but over that year I fell into a horrible depression out of no where. Having never felt this way before, I became extremely paranoid, and ended up in front of a psychiatrist. He prescribed me a series of psychotropic drugs, because I was indeed "very bipolar". Keep in mind I was having suicidal idealizations and having extreme delusions at the time. I even at one point was going to church and thought I was jesus reincarnated! (this was after I was on the medicine). Well as I spiraled further into insanity, depression, and anxiety filled sleepless nights, I ended up in a mental hospital. It was here that a nurse shined a light in my eyes and noticed my pupils would not contract! I was ordered an MRI, and what was revealed was extremely life changing. I had a brain tumor in the center of my brain the size of a lemon! I was completely distraught, but for some reason a deep peace fell over me. I knew everything was going to be alright for some reason. After the next year, (and 4 rounds of chemo, 30 rounds of radiation to the brain, and emotional turmoil), I was cured! However sadly the journey to recovery would not end there. My depression and anxiety stayed with me until the present year. 2008-2014, and scary enough it all subsided when I switched out my anti sezure medicine, (I had only had 1 before so we thought I would be better with another medicine because I had liver damage.) Once on the new low dose of medicine, I had 3 more grand mal seizure this year...But with an upped dose of medicine and no depression and high spirits I am here to tell you I am a truly happy Man once again... However the fact remains that here at this point in my life I am alive and that is all that matters to me anymore!!!!!!- Zachary Grubbs 12/3/14. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Dontfindme Posted December 3, 2014 Share Posted December 3, 2014 Hi Zachary, I am happy to hear that things have turned around for you, and really hope that it continues on in this positive direction. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Thegrubman Posted December 3, 2014 Author Share Posted December 3, 2014 Hi Zachary, I am happy to hear that things have turned around for you, and really hope that it continues on in this positive direction. Thank you!! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
ScreaminEagle Posted December 4, 2014 Share Posted December 4, 2014 You are truly and inspiration for everyone. Keep your chin up. You are a strong man. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Thegrubman Posted December 5, 2014 Author Share Posted December 5, 2014 You are truly and inspiration for everyone. Keep your chin up. You are a strong man. Thank you!! Link to post Share on other sites
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