I broke NC...but went NC yesterday...long (having a breakdown) (Updated)

[nikki76]

I don't care about him, but why are you back on there?

 

Because I wanted to find him and see how recent his activity was. Hoping to find exactly this, so I wont feel sad about my decision of NC.

 

The fact that he messaged me within 5 minutes says something about him.

 

I honestly have no intention of seeking anyone out. I was grossed out by these men and dont understand how I could have ever gone one that site.

[Realist3]

Because I wanted to find him and see how recent his activity was. Hoping to find exactly this, so I wont feel sad about my decision of NC.

 

The fact that he messaged me within 5 minutes says something about him.

 

I honestly have no intention of seeking anyone out. I was grossed out by these men and dont understand how I could have ever gone one that site.

 

Honestly... what did you expect? You are on a cheating website for goodness sake. Most of the people on those sites are serial cheaters. Hit one up for as longs as it lasts, and then move on to the next. You said you feel like a whore? Well, that is exactly what you are doing on those sites, whoring yourself out.

[Poppy47]

Because I wanted to find him and see how recent his activity was. Hoping to find exactly this, so I wont feel sad about my decision of NC.

 

The fact that he messaged me within 5 minutes says something about him.

 

I honestly have no intention of seeking anyone out. I was grossed out by these men and dont understand how I could have ever gone one that site.

 

You did go there didn't you? You had been there before.

 

It seems that you are still obsessed with this dirt bag. Let him go and put your time and energy into those who have a rightful claim on it.

 

I think you need some help to break this A you seem to be holding on to.

 

Best wishes,

Poppy

[jellybean89]

So did you delete your near account?

 

Weren't you cheating on him with your other AP? So both of you weren't honest - shocking I know.

 

Doesn't matter what he does...you allegedly didn't even like him, even though you had sex with him and did other inappropriate things that married women don't do with men who aren't their spouse.

 

You just can't let it go. Which is why I believe WHEN you get busted, your entire life will implode and you have no one to blame but yourself.