Illusion24 Posted March 23, 2005 Share Posted March 23, 2005 So...it's been about 2 days now that I don't post anything because I wanted to unclog my head. Yesterday I finally told my bf that I wanted to "find myself"...That I felt incomplete in my life and I wasn't sure why I was feeling the way I was...During this whole process he suffered more than I can describe...He mentioned how he tries so hard to make comprises with me and to make me happy and that I don't do the same for him...I let him know that it wasn't him or anything he did...I reminded him that after a 2 year relationship I jumped into ours within a week..I explained to him that I haven't been alone to do the things I feel I needed to do by myself in 3 years... So last night I had my moments and I came to a conclusion within a couple of hours what it was... Then it hit me!! I've been acting this way and feeling these emotions because I've been pushing him away...These couple of weeks I feel as if I spent no time with him...and I realized that he's what makes me happy!!! He makes me want to be a better person, have bigger goals in my life and he makes ME feel beautiful...What else do I want??!! I've never had to ask him twice for anything, he's always been there when I needed him to and most of all he's loved me the way I feel I need to be loved...He's my bf, best-friend, and lover and I can honestly say I'm an ediot for putting our love on the line...So, I thought about the age fact to that was bothering me...He told me that he's experienced a lot of things in his life already and that he doesn't want to party and get f*cked up everyweekened...He just wants to feel young and have a good time with HIS GF!!....I felt like s*** His age shouldn't be an issue if I love him and want it to work...I made the decision of making this commitment and I have to stick by it because I FELL IN LOVE...hard!! He completes me in every way and let time answer my questions whether or not it's going to work between us...All I know is that I'm not giving up the one guy that makes me tingley inside because I'm scared of what the future brings...So I'm content and feel at ease with myself and I feel I made the right decision...Now my mission is to prove to him I love him and that I'm still the woman he fell in love with Link to post Share on other sites
Author Illusion24 Posted March 23, 2005 Author Share Posted March 23, 2005 Forgot one more thing...He said he would cut off a limb for me if it meant making me happy and for us to be together... Link to post Share on other sites
Cathy399 Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 WOW, I am in the same situation. but my last relationship was 6 years...And I jumped right into the new relatiohship, but this new guy is great everything you could want in a BF!! But I had the same talk to him telling I needed space to be on my own...But I don't want to loose him because he is such a good guy....Well he is very understanding and will do whatever I feel is right to have a healthy relationship! So we will take it slow and see what happens! Good luck to you, it is so hard to find true love and when you do..HOlD ON TO IT Link to post Share on other sites
Author Illusion24 Posted March 24, 2005 Author Share Posted March 24, 2005 Yeah I know what you mean but I realized that he completes me in every way...I was just being selfish and hoping that life had another plan for me...But in the end it's nothing without your love next to you to share every moment together....Plus he gives me all the time I need to be with my friends and myself if I wanted to...I love him so much...and boy we had great make-up sex... Link to post Share on other sites
EC Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 and boy we had great make-up sex... See thats what I'm talking about!!! lol I'm happy you have found true love...now put a chain around him and lock him in the basement!! Link to post Share on other sites
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