EC Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 Well so My bf Called me yesterday..because I had to call his father for a Flood Insurance Quote..and well he knows his father intimidates me sometimes and I have trouble speaking to him in person let alone on the phone... So I did the quote for his father, really nervous on the phone..freaking out..and about five mins after I hang up with his father, my bf breaks my NC rule and calls me craking up. I'm like hello and he said "You were freaking out weren't yah?" I had to laugh. I have missed him so much. even though he's not here, just hearing his voice everynight was enough for me and I guess I just hadn't realized that. Like Pocky had mentioned all romantic issues aside and relationship stuff aside, my bf has become my Best Friend. I think what I was feeling was fear. Fear that good things happen to me. Since he had came down last week and I had fallen in love all over again I freaked out. I usually have a wall up with guys and when I finally put it down is when I get burned. Its always been this way. S I felt myself really shattering away my wall for him this last week and I guess because of bad experiences from the past I thought the burning part was coming so I was trying to run away from it. I was trying to prove to myself that I didnt need him or this relationship to be happy or feel complete in life because well if it went away I wanted to know that I could still stand on my own two feet. But I realized he does make me happy, I do need him, and he does complete me. I need to stop being such a damn scardey cat and just enjoy what I have. I was like this before but I thought I was over it and doing much better but I guess after that week I felt how fell in love again and had the most beautiful week of my life that I freaked out. So anyways he understands, he re-assured me that he isn't going anywhere and that I need to just relax and enjoy what we have. He said he'll be down in 4 months and hes visitng end of April so we will be fine. That the torture is almost over. So phew Guys...lol and he just sent me a text as I'm writing this that says "I love you ..dont be afraid of love" LMAO weird! So were back together and I'm going to really try to not worry so much and I'm also reading a good book called "If this is love, why am I so insecure?" and I am learning a lot on how to deal with my in securities. THANK YOU LS for listening to my rants! I dont think I wouldve been ok without you guys! Link to post Share on other sites
Pocky Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 I'm very happy for you, EC. In my opinion, your relationship provides you with too much happiness to let it dissipate now. Link to post Share on other sites
LittleMiss Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 I'm glad everything worked out for you. You are lucky to have such an understanding guy. He must really love you. He is right. You should just let love happen, don't be afraid to let yourself go. I'm sort of the same way. It's hard for me to let ppl in. Now that I'm in love it's kind of hard not to. Relax and just think of how great everything will be when he moves back for good. Good luck! Link to post Share on other sites
IhavenoFREAKINclue Posted March 24, 2005 Share Posted March 24, 2005 YAY EC!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you! Don't let him go.....he's a keeper, no matter how much he scrathces his balls! Link to post Share on other sites
Author EC Posted March 24, 2005 Author Share Posted March 24, 2005 YAY EC!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you! Don't let him go.....he's a keeper, no matter how much he scrathces his balls! I love his stanky balls. lol Nah I'm not letting him go. I'm putting Lo-jack on his has and he's mine forever. lol Link to post Share on other sites
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