Panorama Posted January 6, 2015 Share Posted January 6, 2015 So I have officially accepted that I am crazy in the best way. I am crazy in the way that if Divergent was reality, I'd belong in Dauntless. If you have no clue what that means, this means that deep down, I am fearless even if it means risking hurt. I can take a punch...I can endure a lot. Risk taking makes me feel alive! The pure thrill delights me! <3 I truly do not give a f*ck what anyone thinks about me or how they feel because they donot have a heaven or hell to send me to. I love a physical challenge...something about the whole process excites me. I won't hesitate to call a b*tch out for being grimy or let someone know that I don't like them with my body language and eyes, or even words if it comes down to it. I love that confident strut...intense and invicible, ready for anything yet calm and cool as if I am kissing the Earth with my feet. I enjoy doing innocently crazy sh*t even if it makes me look like I'm a loony. I have finally embraced this intensely free spirited nature instead of reducing it to fit in with others and keep others comfortable. This midnset makes my life feel more adventurous and vibrant! What are the best ways to bring my fiery nature into full effect? I don't want one tame bone in my body! Link to post Share on other sites
Ronni_W Posted January 6, 2015 Share Posted January 6, 2015 Panorama, It sounds that you certainly do have loads of fiery energy and passion... But if I read you accurately, that you have been misusing the good that can come of it through imposing it, in a negative way, on others...being intimidating, or provoking things so that you can get to feel/experience the "rush" or "high" of it. (Did I get the gist of it?) Couple of thoughts. One way to go, is to use your courage and fearlessness and free spirit, and become an instructor for any one (or more than one?) of those extreme sports, or that wilderness/outdoor-thing that people like Bear Grylls excel at. Another way to go is to focus on the cause that you're passionate about...whatever you see that will be good for the 'greater whole' if we could change it for the planet. Child prostitution, or poverty, or the environment. Clean drinking water, or good shelter, for all. Whatever 'area' that is in your own heart's desire to make a difference...and at the same time, something where you can travel, and have the adventure, and feel alive, and spend all that wonderful energy in a way that makes you feel even MORE alive and MORE fantastic about yourself! Best of luck! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
genuinelyloverly7 Posted January 7, 2015 Share Posted January 7, 2015 Panorama, It sounds that you certainly do have loads of fiery energy and passion... But if I read you accurately, that you have been misusing the good that can come of it through imposing it, in a negative way, on others...being intimidating, or provoking things so that you can get to feel/experience the "rush" or "high" of it. (Did I get the gist of it?) Couple of thoughts. One way to go, is to use your courage and fearlessness and free spirit, and become an instructor for any one (or more than one?) of those extreme sports, or that wilderness/outdoor-thing that people like Bear Grylls excel at. Another way to go is to focus on the cause that you're passionate about...whatever you see that will be good for the 'greater whole' if we could change it for the planet. Child prostitution, or poverty, or the environment. Clean drinking water, or good shelter, for all. Whatever 'area' that is in your own heart's desire to make a difference...and at the same time, something where you can travel, and have the adventure, and feel alive, and spend all that wonderful energy in a way that makes you feel even MORE alive and MORE fantastic about yourself! Best of luck! I was going to say this! There are so many injustices in the world that can to be addressed with your fiery passionate personality! I personally love performance art; activist performance art is one of my favorite mediums. It can be anywhere, any time, on any subject you desire. The point is to make people feel/think something about what you are presenting. There is a part of the process of radical self acceptance that leads you to stretch the boundaries of other peoples feelings and viewpoints, and it sounds like you are going through this. That is part of being authentic, but you may look back later and realize you could have been more compassionate in how you presented that crazy authentic you. That would be my only caveat: while your being your awesome, crazy, beautiful self, be mindful of having compassion for other people's space and viewpoint. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
EgoJoe Posted January 8, 2015 Share Posted January 8, 2015 You could read about egocentrism, egotism and narcissism. That might help. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Satu Posted January 8, 2015 Share Posted January 8, 2015 Fragile Narcissism. "People with classic Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) often seem conceited, boastful and arrogant. They monopolize conversations and have a strong sense of entitlement. If they don’t receive the ‘special treatment’ to which they feel entitled, they become visibly impatient or angry. Narcissists insist on having “the best” of everything — the best car, country club, neighborhood and social circles. People with NPD disparage and bully people that they consider inferior. But underneath all the arrogant, overly confident behavior lies fragile self-esteem. Narcissists do not have the coping skills necessary to deal with anything that they perceive as criticism, whether it was meant that way or not. It is not unusual for them to erupt in a rage or show stony contempt over a mild slight. Some authors believe this is due to a profound sense of shame and humiliation that they try to hide, deny or keep secret. They tend to make themselves feel superior by demeaning and insulting others." Source. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
genuinelyloverly7 Posted January 10, 2015 Share Posted January 10, 2015 I don't think the OP is describing narcissism/NPD or extreme ego. She is talking about being flirty (maybe my word), expressive, and wildly open about her feelings. Almost a radical honesty kind of thing (I'm not too sure about the RH, but it fits in a metaphorical kind of way, to me). And I feel like she is talking about responding to her and other's feelings/actions in an honest way. (OP, correct me if I am wrong) Maybe it could be interpreted as NPD/Ego if she is not considerate of others feelings. And that is a good point. We wild-n-open folks have to temper our energy in regards to other people's feelings, insofar as we don't want to be deliberately hurtful or careless. It does no good to be radical/crazy open if people are always on the defensive with us or shut us out. Nor do we have anyone to be ourselves with, if we push them all away with our daily actions. I would suggest to OP that as long as you are reflecting on your actions and your impact on people's honest feelings (not their judgement of you, and it is important to learn to distinguish the two, especially if you are going to be radically open with your own feelings/thoughts/beliefs) then go for it, fly free, have fun, and keep us updated on your progress! . Link to post Share on other sites
regine_phalange Posted January 10, 2015 Share Posted January 10, 2015 What are the best ways to bring my fiery nature into full effect? I don't want one tame bone in my body! That's awesome! The first thing that came to mind is that you can be an animal tamer. Taking tarantulas and alligators out of people's apartments. You can also punch women with payment. I suppose that most male professionals in this field wouldn't accept to punch a woman with payment. This would make you unique in the trade. Link to post Share on other sites
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