bathtub-row Posted January 10, 2015 Share Posted January 10, 2015 I was cleaning out photos on my phone because it ran out of memory. In the process, I came across some old texts between xMM and I. Apparently, I captured them as photos. We were talking about various things and thinking about why we were no longer together. I wrote: "Wouldn't it be nice if none of that stuff mattered?" His reply was: "Yep. Life is too short on its own...throw morals in the punch bowl and we all become too civilized and empty." Later, he wrote: "Keep memories close and great memories closer...that way, we'll beat the time bandits and we'll always smile when we look at each other." You know, in a way, I see his point. I know it's mostly baloney - where would we be without morals, right? Then again, I sometimes wonder if we have become too "civilized and empty". Link to post Share on other sites
Ronni_W Posted January 10, 2015 Share Posted January 10, 2015 Hugs, bathtub-row. You made me think. I think..."too empty". But I don't know if its for too much or not enough "morals" or "civilized" ways of thinking, doing and being. I also can't decide if it's "mostly baloney"...or if it was the spirit's (or soul's) attempt, in that brief moment, to express something more real, that is felt more deeply. Hugs, bathtub-row. I feel you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author bathtub-row Posted January 10, 2015 Author Share Posted January 10, 2015 Thanks, Ronni. You know, it doesn't hurt anymore. I'm over the whole thing, for the most part. If he told me he had left his marriage and wanted to date me, yeah, I'd be happy about that. But I don't dream about him anymore. I don't have feelings of longing for him or anything like that. I had to let it all go or it would've killed me. I saw him during the Christmas holidays and those feelings could've come back full force if I had let them. It's just a matter of control, and not about whether I love him or not. I'm not saying that his intent was baloney. I just meant where would we be without morals. It's a tough thing to sort out in your head. I think his words were very sincere and we definitely had a very special...something. The truth is, I was more alive with him than I ever was. But the pain was the opposite of being alive. So strange. Life. It's so strange. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Ronni_W Posted January 10, 2015 Share Posted January 10, 2015 So strange. Life. It's so strange. Yes. I know. The unconditional love...where one can let them go...and not be attached to those feelings that one is letting go at the same time. Go and be who you need to be, and do what you need to do. And I am going to be okay with that. I am going to be okay with that. I am going to be okay with that... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
still_an_Angel Posted January 11, 2015 Share Posted January 11, 2015 "Yep. Life is too short on its own...throw morals in the punch bowl and we all become too civilized and empty." Then again, I sometimes wonder if we have become too "civilized and empty". To be following/doing what is morally correct to the detriment of our personal happiness... it sounds simple yet everyone finds themselves in complicated situations in making this decision. We are all unique so under this concept, we will never find the same combination of personalities that we find in one particular person. So when one comes across such a "connection" but the other person is surrounded with a whole lot of complications that clash with morality, what do you do? Walk away because this is the right thing to do with all parties involved, and enter the realm of emptiness. Its really sad. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
janetl Posted January 11, 2015 Share Posted January 11, 2015 Walk away because this is the right thing to do with all parties involved, and enter the realm of emptiness. So true. So true that it made me cry. Emptiness is all that is left after the pain goes away! Link to post Share on other sites
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