jellybean89 Posted January 18, 2015 Share Posted January 18, 2015 Wow thank you both. Harsh realty to face I appreciate the honest. The more I read it from you all the more I believe it and tune into reality! I half expect him to end it tomorrow or Monday where things were awkward and he was acting strange and ignored me all day.. Will soon see What? Why are YOU allowing him to dictate your life? You would rather wait and see if he will throw you some crumbs? I don't see you ever ending this...instead you will accept what little he offers you. I agree, we teach people how to treat us and you have taught the MM that it doesn't take much to keep you hooked. You already accept he has a wife, a life with her and minimal to no communication when he is with her. You accept him coming over, having sex with you and then rushing home to his wife. He has it made. He knows he can have you with little effort..you are wasting your life waiting to have an hour with a cheater. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Intoodeep19 Posted January 18, 2015 Author Share Posted January 18, 2015 Thanks everyone I went to church this morning and it was really powerful and helped got a lot of tears out. I basically feel numb now he messaged me this morning it still didn't feel the same. I was stupid and I asked him to come and he ignored my comment completely which hurt and I figured that's what he would say so church helped me realize that he doesn't want to come only when it's convenient. I'm just now trying to figure out how to distance myself and not be waiting by the phone like I've been doing when he is home and honestly I am kind of doing it now. I said come down tonight and half hour later he said it was nice to have a chat with you this morning. So the people at my church really made me realize that I deserve better than this and that I can get more just how how do I stop this without going crazy and feeling lonely? Link to post Share on other sites
Daisy2013 Posted January 18, 2015 Share Posted January 18, 2015 Hi. You have been given great advice, encouragement and wisdom. Please take heed. This relationship with your MM, your soulmate (yes, I understand this), can be exhilarating, yet I promise, will be excruciating, in the long run. It has taken me a long time to see what was happening to me and I am worth so much more ... and find "me" again and I'm learning to be happy with my life, meaning, I'm coming out of the fog of I must have him. I've wanted to die and have had no self-worth unless he paid attention to me. Dummy me. You listen to these wise people and please please strengthen yourself to walk away now. Go through the pain that I refused to go through. Yours has been short. It will be worse if you keep going. You are worth so much more! Trust me. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
jellybean89 Posted January 19, 2015 Share Posted January 19, 2015 Thanks everyone I went to church this morning and it was really powerful and helped got a lot of tears out. I basically feel numb now he messaged me this morning it still didn't feel the same. I was stupid and I asked him to come and he ignored my comment completely which hurt and I figured that's what he would say so church helped me realize that he doesn't want to come only when it's convenient. I'm just now trying to figure out how to distance myself and not be waiting by the phone like I've been doing when he is home and honestly I am kind of doing it now. I said come down tonight and half hour later he said it was nice to have a chat with you this morning. So the people at my church really made me realize that I deserve better than this and that I can get more just how how do I stop this without going crazy and feeling lonely? Please, for your own sanity, stop texting him and asking him to come see you. No person should have to beg for attention from someone they 'love' or from the person who claims to 'love' them. He only wants you when it is convenient for HIM and it is for sex - not for companionship, not for friendship and not for a life time commitment. Leave him alone and stop hurting yourself by throwing yourself at him. He isn't worth it. It is an affair. It isn't a fairytale romance that you and he will skip off into the sunset and get married. He is already married. You are not his girlfriend; you are his mistress and that is all it will ever be. Don't sink to that level anymore. Block him from contacting you. Stop wasting your life waiting for him to send you a text or for him to have an hour to spend with you. The sooner you accept this, the sooner you will heal and move on with your life. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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