is it just wrong timing for us? if it's fate will it work out? Long post but worth it

[SUNFLOWER2015]

Almost 2 months ago my boyfriend broke up with me. We lived together and had been fighting a lot I know I was hard on him when I shouldn’t have been. But he said (he is 28 and I am 33) that he wasn’t sure if he was ready for marriage that he didn’t know if it was me or him and he just felt really confused and didn’t want to string me along. So we moved into our own places (he really wanted to move to the city and I did not so he felt we had different goals) as we were moving out he said a lot of confusing things that he thought he could really marry me but didn’t want to have doubts and that this time could show him and he 100% wants us to have chance in the future because I was thinking of moving home 3000 miles away but he hoped I would stay here which I did.

 

Since then I don’t contact him it’s been a month living a part but every 5 days or so I hear from him checking in and also wanting to see me. On Christmas Eve we hung out and I asked to stay over he got really emotional and starting crying (which is weird as we were together for 3 years and he never cried) he said it would be too hard and sad that we are making progress and need to be okay being alone that he needs to get over the sadness to realize if I am the one and this is it and we will get married I said okay and left. After that again he contacted after a few days and wanted to see me. We have seen each other a few times but never talk of our relationship except once him saying it was much harder than he thought and I seemed to be doing ok and much better than him.

 

I went on vacation recently to visit my family. I was gone for 8 days before I left he asked for my itinerary “just in case” so I gave it to him. Once I arrived he checked in to make sure I made it and that was it. He follows me on social media and I posted a few pictures so he saw them. The day before I was coming back he messaged me asking if I was actually planning on coming back, I said yes and he asked if I was coming back the next day I said yes he said that it looked like I was having so much fun I would not want to come back. Then asked if I wanted to hang out that Sunday the day after I got back so I said okay. I was thinking maybe he realized how much he missed me and we would talk.

 

But when we hung out there was no relationship talk just went and did some things together and hung out at his place I got ready to leave but he wanted me to stay and stay the night, so I did because I wanted to as well, nothing physical happened I actually felt he was being sure not to touch me or anything like that. We got up the next day he made us coffee and breakfast and I left around 2p we spent about 24 hours together. He stood at the door and watched me leave and looked sad but maybe I’m reading too much into it. I can tell he tries to get all dressed up and looks when I come and clean up his place but he doesn’t talk about us. So should I just let it go or talk to him about things? I feel it should come from him because he broke things off but I really love him and want us to have another chance. Am I doing the wrong things seeing him? it's just hard because I love him and I met someone else but have no motivation to even see the other guy now for some reason.

 

I guess I am still holding to hope with my ex. He told me he believed that what's mean to be will be and that if we are meant we will end up back together BUT that's not really easy to sit on.

[towardthefuture]

You really don't need to have 3 identical threads on the first page.