newby Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 sent great final email, but have no way of telling if he read it or not, this is really annoying me! Link to post Share on other sites
lynnered Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 stop it newby !! just stop !!! I've done same thing , but who cares what his reaction will be ? does he even deserve this email? i think it would be more painful to him , if you just stopped calling,writing ,emailing , let him wonder like I've seen you in your posts, i wish you luck , things will get better, spring has sprung&it is so beautiful today!! Link to post Share on other sites
newby Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 i know lynnered!! this is my final obsessing! honestly!! ha ha you are right, it was good though! Link to post Share on other sites
ww Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 Do whatever you feel you need to do. As long as it makes you feel better. It is not a war ...it is just getting over. Link to post Share on other sites
lynnered Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 Originally posted by ww Do whatever you feel you need to do. As long as it makes you feel better. It is not a war ...it is just getting over. i do agree ,do what you need to do, but ,every contact ,then waiting for him ,wondering , pushes anybody backwards, then here she is starting over again!! thats not good on her!! there are many ways of going forward, but only one way of standing still. Link to post Share on other sites
ww Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 + there is no such thing as perfect ending! it `s just another ending but hey doesn`t an ending of something also mean a beginning of something new? Link to post Share on other sites
Donut Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 There is no such thing as a perfect ending. This is where fairytales lead us astray........ Link to post Share on other sites
newby Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 yeah dont worry all, im sure i sound worse than i feel, i think he is a pr!ck, i know it doesnt matter what he thinks in one way. on the other hand i dont want him thinking that i am still wanting him and he always does think that. this time it is different, i really dont want him, i think the kind of person who can lie to somebody for a long time to continually sleep with them knowing full well they have no feelings is just some dumb animal. however this doesnt stop me wanting to leave with all my dignity and self respect back. i want him to know that i am not sitting here weeping over him, because i am not. i really am not. i am not really obsessing lynnered i was half joking because i know how i have been before. i dont feel like that now though. i dont believe in judging anybody so i will just say that me an him are different people. ! Link to post Share on other sites
ww Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 ..dumb animal.. sometimes animals look intelligent Link to post Share on other sites
izzybelle Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 sometimes animals look intelligent sometimes they may look that way, but mostly they just look cute and cuddly and then when you're not looking they turn around and bite you in the butt!!! let's just hope all are up to date on their shots! for me, the "perfect" ending would be years from now, him crawling back to me and me being able to tell him that it's too late. but ... i know that won't happen and that's ok. life's not perfect. very slowly but surely i'm getting him out of my system and getting my old self back. so that's my perfect ending, i suppose. he's back in the marriage he said was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo awful, and i'm moving on to something happy! and yes, there's a part of me that is so tempted to call him and let him know that i'm happy, but what would it matter? so i won't, at least not today! Link to post Share on other sites
ww Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 My way of perfect ending? sit down talk as 2 grown people. forgiving each other mistakes. .........and I almost forgot : him paying me a 14 daystrip to Hawaii ( to relax after a huge period of stress) where I meet my future husband i might as well high5 myself bc of this one! Link to post Share on other sites
lynnered Posted March 31, 2005 Share Posted March 31, 2005 Alanis Morissette - "Sorry To Myself" I’m sorry to myself. My apologies begin here before everybody else. I’m sorry to myself. For treating me worse than I would anybody else. Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ? Forgetting you or forgetting myself... Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter, I would’ve naturally loved the former. For ignoring you: my highest voices. For smiling when my strife was all too obvious. For being so disassociated from my body, And for not letting go when it would’ve been the kindest thing. To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one’s been crueler than I’ve been to me. And I’m sorry to myself. My apologies begin here before everybody else I’m sorry to myself. For treating me worse than I would anybody else. I’m sorry to myself. My apologies begin here before everybody else I’m sorry to myself. For treating me worse than I would anybody else for you newby !! this song always makes me feel like i have strength to fix the wrong ive done to me!! Link to post Share on other sites
newby Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 thanks lynnered, i guess thats the perfect lyrics for everyone in here Link to post Share on other sites
newby Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 i'm sorry lynnered i dont mean to sound ungrateful its just that these lyrics are no longer applicable. i know i was being self destructive, i probably knew it from the beginning, i didnt care though at the time. i was bad to myself, for a long time. i had had a long period of bad luck followed by a long period of self blame, or probably a fine blend of both. i wanted him to end the relationship, i knew that he would if i said certain things, i even manipulated the conversation so it went that way, i prefered that he ended it because i thought it was worse on me if i ended it, and it always left me with that little bit of hope. i made it so it is clear and harsh and i have to get over it. that is how i wanted things really. all these little doubts etc are just surface and will come out in the wash. things are different now, i no longer feel self destructive. i feel good inside, not happy, but that i am aiming for the best. that i am concious now at least. i am not hanging on to this relationship because it was yesterday. i know that he will nver come back and i am glad. i do not want the relationship in any form. i feel a slight stab if i see him, but then i quickly realise that the relationship was no more to me than it was to him. i dont blame him and i am not angry at him. i think it was an unconcious act on both of our parts. i cannot speak for him, but i was being half unconciously self destructive, i say half because i was aware of it some of the time, but as i said before, i did not care then. i do care now, it is why it is over. he would have carried on if i had let him. he would have carried on, but he never would have had any feelings for me. i guess i knew that on alot of levels. thing is, i dont think i really had any feelings for him either. in retrospect, it was an easy relationship for me because there was never any pressure. it was easy and it was self destructive, basically it was lazy. i am no longer lazy and that is a fact. Link to post Share on other sites
MsMree Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 on the other hand i dont want him thinking that i am still wanting him and he always does think that. this time it is different i want him to know that i am not sitting here weeping over him, because i am not Newby- I would think that you wanted me, too if you spent this much time try'g to convince me otherwise. I'm just going to be honest with you: i think you are mak'g a fool of yourself (AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I RESPECT YOU - this is very hard for me to say to you!!) ACT AS IF: he doesn't matter - you USED him - you haven't given him a 2nd thought - you ARE SO GRATEFUL TO BE RID OF THAT LIMP-D!CK. IN OTHER WORDS - FU@K HIM!!! He's so not worth you, Newby!! Link to post Share on other sites
ww Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 no don`t just ACT AS IF... Feel it too! Link to post Share on other sites
sami Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 I totally agree. Link to post Share on other sites
newby Posted April 1, 2005 Share Posted April 1, 2005 Newby- I would think that you wanted me, too if you spent this much time try'g to convince me otherwise. I'm just going to be honest with you: i think you are mak'g a fool of yourself (AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I RESPECT YOU - this is very hard for me to say to you!!) ACT AS IF: he doesn't matter - you USED him - you haven't given him a 2nd thought - you ARE SO GRATEFUL TO BE RID OF THAT LIMP-D!CK. IN OTHER WORDS - FU@K HIM!!! He's so not worth you, Newby!! QUOTE ORIGINALLY POSTED BY MSMREE appreciate the honesty msmree! this made me laugh, however i dont know what you are talking about, i dont write to him what i write here!! that would be insane! i sent one singular email and it did not say anything along the lines of, i am not weeping over you etc etc. no, that is what i am telling you guys and what ulterior motive would i have for that? i'm telling you guys cos its true. i am seriously not weeping over him and i seriously dont care, only momentarily, i caught myself here in one of those moments it seems but then, that is what loveshack is for. isnt it? i am not going to act as if i used him, its not true and why would i want to make myself out to be the kind of uncompassionate user that he is? no i would rather that he feels beneath me because he is a user of people and i am not (and also because he hasnt got the stamina to be on top of me !) i am not making any kind of fool of myself believe me, and even if i am, its only in his eyes and i dont care what he thinks, you seem to be suggesting that i should! Link to post Share on other sites
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