3 years of relation and she moved away

[Muhib]

The story I'm writing is my own story. I was 21 and she was 16. Me and Hrisi met on Facebook I sent a request on August 16 2011. On Nov 14 2011 we were in relation. At the first year of our relation we talked on Facebook as she don't have any PC and on Dec 2012 she got her PC we were so much both happy that we will talk on Skype. From Dec 2012 to Dec 27 2014. I think there were only 3 or 4 nights that we haven't talked on Skype. We talked daily from night till morning. And in morning she went to her school and I at work. Then she finished her high school last June 2014 I was so happy as she made her passport and ID. So she will come to me I talked to a consultant so he started processing. Okay let me here tell you as she was younger then me I was always saying to her don't drink don't smoke and don't goto pubs she don't go. Once she also cheated on me in the relation but I forgive her but it was a heart attack for me when she told me about it I cried loud as hell but my pain started healing with the time. But my trust of loosing her begun I got afraid age will do again and I asked many questions to her but things were working fine but in the mean time she were replying so much late then she says that she was busy but I became habitual as in my mind she is coming to me I saved money so she will come and I can pay the expenses of her university but in my heart every time all the time every time I was so afraid that I will lose her I don't know why at times I don't tell her as may be she will think that I do dramas. But I cried many times in front of her. But suddenly after Dec 27 2014 her PC got broken and we stopped talking and the hardest part was I lost my job but I did not told her I was so much frustrated that I eventually lost my self then after that she bought a new PC in jan 03 2015 but that PC windows does not supported Skype at that time I just realize that my luck is so bad but I just tried to control my self we started talking on Facebook and here let me tell you these days her mobile was also not working so I have to wait for 3-5 hours for her one text. Then she started finding a job the fear of losing got increased more asking her these things how many guys work with you , don't talk to them much etc. don't talk to males like this. The document process were in process recently in Dec I paid the agent amount and on Jan 01 2015 I lost my job and I haven't told her as may be she will worry more but I didn't know that I have to face more hard time then she was all the time talking about her job I will do this I will buy new lap top, etc. my heart was crying in Tears like I was feeling that 5 years old younger then me will do job and I lost my work I haven't share this to her but I was so much in pain so much frustration then she found a job I cried much alone I never share this that I lost my job but I was crying that may be she will like another guy in the market where she works. But she only worked for 1 week they fired her. I was happy may be that she will give time properly and she was happy too as she said it was not good at all. Then on Jan 28 2015 she was with her friend came late home and I got angry I texted her that I called u many times why u haven't picked my call u ignore so much and she got bursted she unfriend me from Facebook and said get lost from my life I hate you and I'm done with you.

Here let me tell u in the mid of this relation I secretly Contacted her friends too that may be I'm wrong person so they can tell me as she some times said that I don't understand. Okay let me continue after fighting so much with me I become nervous and I said sorry million times I did my best to make her realize that I will not fight okay don't leave me text me late I will wait but don't leave me. But the saddest part was when she said find another girl and make a family with her I don't love you anymore I have no feelings for you. She was saying this so normal as 3 years doesn't mean anything to her I was so shocked I cried so much in prayers I starts praying much so god can help me but nothing worked. Feb 07 2015 when I got fully tired after her rejection of days I finally said I will never text u. U are a stone and she said u always wanted me to control u wanted a Slave not a life partner it was not true but on feb 06 the most heart breaking thing that I came to know she started loving a guy in the sane super market where she worked she want to see him and her friend said she is so blind soon she will bang her head in mentel. And I did my best to take her back she stopped receiving my calls so u can imagine how frustrating it would be expressing all this in writing but she just said she don't love me bye forever leave my life. But from all this I started loving god I become so close to him I know my cries won't be wasted. She wanted discos drinking and drugs I just wrote at the end time will make you realize what u did. But from her friend she's very happy nothing matter to her that I'm burning here. And now she's starting a new relation this year she was about to come to me and we were about to marry and this happened to me. I even try to make her realize our golden memories that we had but nothing effected her. Her reply was I don't want to be with you **** off.

I even tried to express my self from this track

If you know, how I feel You won’t go but make me heal I have seen many tears I’m in between hope and fears One more day until the end Don’t take away another friend I wish on a star for us to get together One more day until the end Don’t take away another friend I wish on a star for us to get together.

I had only words to tell her as she stopped picking my call what I'm feeling what pain I'm going through but nothing worked. But I pray to god one day she will realized. That's all.

[trolloperative]

You really need to re-post this with paragraphs if you want responses. No one will read it otherwise.

[Muhib]

RE- Posted

 

The story I'm writing is my own story. I was 21 and she was 16. Me and Hrisi met on Facebook I sent a request on August 16 2011. On Nov 14 2011 we were in relation. At the first year of our relation we talked on Facebook as she don't have any PC and on Dec 2012 she got her PC we were so much both happy that we will talk on Skype. From Dec 2012 to Dec 27 2014. I think there were only 3 or 4 nights that we haven't talked on Skype. We talked daily from night till morning. And in morning she went to her school and I at work. Then she finished her high school last June 2014 I was so happy as she made her passport and ID. So she will come to me I talked to a consultant so he started processing. Okay let me here tell you as she was younger then me I was always saying to her don't drink don't smoke and don't goto pubs she don't go. Once she also cheated on me in the relation but I forgive her but it was a heart attack for me when she told me about it I cried loud as hell but my pain started healing with the time. But my trust of loosing her begun I got afraid age will do again and I asked many questions to her but things were working fine but in the mean time she were replying so much late then she says that she was busy but I became habitual as in my mind she is coming to me I saved money so she will come and I can pay the expenses of her university but in my heart every time all the time every time I was so afraid that

 

I will lose her I don't know why at times I don't tell her as may be she will think that I do dramas. But I cried many times in front of her. But suddenly after Dec 27 2014 her PC got broken and we stopped talking and the hardest part was I lost my job but I did not told her I was so much frustrated that I eventually lost my self then after that she bought a new PC in jan 03 2015 but that PC windows does not supported Skype at that time I just realize that my luck is so bad but I just tried to control my self we started talking on Facebook and here let me tell you these days her mobile was also not working so I have to wait for 3-5 hours for her one text. Then she started finding a job the fear of losing got increased more asking her these things how many guys work with you , don't talk to them much etc. don't talk to males like this. The document process were in process recently in Dec I paid the agent amount and on Jan 01 2015 I lost my job and I haven't told her as may be she will worry more but I didn't know that I have to face more hard time then she was all the time talking about her job I will do this I will buy new lap top, etc. my heart was crying in Tears like I was feeling that 5 years old younger then me will do job and I lost my work I haven't share this to her but I was so much in pain so much frustration then she found a job I cried much alone I never share this that I lost my job but I was crying that may be she will like another guy in the market where she works. But she only worked for 1 week they fired her. I was happy may be that she will give time properly and she was happy too as she said it was not good at all. Then on Jan 28 2015 she was with her friend came late home and I got angry I texted her that I called u many times why u haven't picked my call u ignore so much and she got bursted she unfriend me from Facebook and said get lost from my life I hate you and I'm done with you.

 

Here let me tell u in the mid of this relation I secretly Contacted her friends too that may be I'm wrong person so they can tell me as she some times said that I don't understand. Okay let me continue after fighting so much with me I become nervous and I said sorry million times I did my best to make her realize that I will not fight okay don't leave me text me late I will wait but don't leave me. But the saddest part was when she said find another girl and make a family with her I don't love you anymore I have no feelings for you.

 

She was saying this so normal as 3 years doesn't mean anything to her I was so shocked I cried so much in prayers I starts praying much so god can help me but nothing worked. Feb 07 2015 when I got fully tired after her rejection of days I finally said I will never text u. U are a stone and she said u always wanted me to control u wanted a Slave not a life partner it was not true but on feb 06 the most heart breaking thing that I came to know she started loving a guy in the sane super market where she worked she want to see him and her friend said she is so blind soon she will bang her head in mentel. And I did my best to take her back she stopped receiving my calls so u can imagine how frustrating it would be expressing all this in writing but she just said she don't love me bye forever leave my life. But from all this I started loving god I become so close to him I know my cries won't be wasted. She wanted discos drinking and drugs I just wrote at the end time will make you realize what u did. But from her friend she's very happy nothing matter to her that I'm burning here. And now she's starting a new relation this year she was about to come to me and we were about to marry and this happened to me. I even try to make her realize our golden memories that we had but nothing effected her. Her reply was I don't want to be with you **** off.

I even tried to express my self from this track

If you know, how I feel You won’t go but make me heal I have seen many tears I’m in between hope and fears One more day until the end Don’t take away another friend I wish on a star for us to get together One more day until the end Don’t take away another friend I wish on a star for us to get together.

 

I had only words to tell her as she stopped picking my call what I'm feeling what pain I'm going through but nothing worked. But I pray to god one day she will realized. That's all.

[remote]

I don't think I can understand all that you're saying...but you do sound very controlling. It doesn't seem like she wanted to be with you throughout those times. I don't think you're asking for any advice either, so I'll just stop here. I wish you all the best.