Me Strong? Oh I hurt as everyone does and I do bleed gallons!

[debs]

My secret to being strong and getting past the hurt I have experienced in my life!

 

It is known on LS I am not one who will hold my tongue when it comes to being unfaithful!

 

I have done allot of things in my life I am not exactly proud or happy about!

 

I hurt and suffer emotionally as anyone else I just chose not to dwell on it or show it!

 

I have had 3 husbands, 2 were wanderers, 1 was a depressive who drained me emotionally!

 

All 3 I can say never were the main providers, I was! But I do have the education as not 1 of them did!

 

My biggest down fall is that I had a nasty habit of feeling sorry for the guys, man I was a sucker for a sob story! But being an online person now and seeing all the bs that is dished out I have learned my lesson, late but never the less learned it!

 

I set a time table on a difficult situation, yes I analyze it to death! I say OK no more hurt no more pain and yes it does take me a while to come back from the fog as I said I just hide it better than most! But I do face it head on! I deal in reality and logic!

 

I learned to say NO! And meant it! I learned to say no thank you to men who are users and abusers! I learned to let go when something is not working whether it is a friend or a relationship! Dysfunctional no more!

 

I read everything about dealing and coping thus I found LS! I was in therapy for the very problem of picking up strays as my shrink called it!

 

15 months later I am a better person emotionally! I found ME!

 

I delibertly stayed single for a full year to learn about me. I don't need a man to make me complete but we all do get lonely! I dated but my heart wasn't into it.

 

BUT I met Tim in Tahoe, I am going to spend some time with this gentleman and see what develops.

 

Anyone can develop a strong will as I have! Lives bumps have assisted me in becoming a stronger person!

 

As I approach 50 this week I never stop learning!

[KnottyGrrl]

You go Grrl. Mistakes aren't mistakes if you learn from them.

 

Sounds like you are on the path to true love- self love.

 

KnottyGrrl

 

PS-Good luck with Tim!

[Thinkalot]

ditto! each experience helps shape us, make us stronger, and more interesting.

I am happy you have come so far.