Im Codependent and Homeless. Trying to figure myself out.

[SearchingForMyself]

Hi guys. Im new here, but I figured this was a safe place to let it all out.

 

Im 24 years old and have had problems with codependency in relationships since my first gf at 19. Since then ive been on terrible dates with really, REALLY low quality women.

 

Ive had no boundaries on my types because Ive been getting part time and temp work for the longest. But then 2 weeks, I left my small town behind to go to a small city....with more opportunities...

 

I slept in homeless shelters...under overpasses...begged for cash...and even did some things just for food and shelter. Im not proud of it either.

 

2 weeks later(no i dont have a car) I decided enough was enough and I ran back to my small town, when the real purpose was to get work in the city.

 

I feel like such a coward that I ran back home to family when I got just a taste of the city life. Now im back on my farm, back to square one...

 

I feel so powerless at times. Been contemplating suicide. even the one friend I had up there that tried to help me, I ran away from.

 

Im thinking of going back and sticking it out, because my problems follow me around.

 

anyone ever gone through similar experiences at my age? what would be your advice?

 

at this point I could use all the wisdom I could get. thank you

[CrystalShine2011]

What makes you happy?

 

What goals do you have in place to reach that happiness?

 

[SearchingForMyself]

What makes you happy?

 

What goals do you have in place to reach that happiness?

 

 

That's it. At this stage, I honestly don't know

[beach]

Research shelters in your area. They usually help you with job skills and finding you employment.

 

Have you ever had a drug/alcohol problem?

[SearchingForMyself]

Research shelters in your area. They usually help you with job skills and finding you employment.

 

Have you ever had a drug/alcohol problem?

 

No. Been clean all of my life

[Taramere]

I feel like such a coward that I ran back home to family when I got just a taste of the city life. Now im back on my farm, back to square one...

 

You didn't get a taste of city life. You were homeless in an unfamiliar environment, and at great risk. Returning to family was the right and sensible thing to do.

 

Im thinking of going back and sticking it out, because my problems follow me around.

 

Then it's time to start addressing those problems with some professional support, while you're in a safe place. Have you discussed these events with your family doctor? It sounds to me as though you need to sit down with a skilled counsellor who can help you identify just what these problems following you around are, and how you can start addressing them in realistic ways...rather than just trying to run away from them, and finding that they follow you to places where you're going to be less and less equipped to deal with them.

[beach]

Does Salvation Army take people in if they don't have a drug/alcohol problem?

 

Might be worth checking - if you are in the US.

[SearchingForMyself]

You didn't get a taste of city life. You were homeless in an unfamiliar environment, and at great risk. Returning to family was the right and sensible thing to do.

 

 

 

Then it's time to start addressing those problems with some professional support, while you're in a safe place. Have you discussed these events with your family doctor? It sounds to me as though you need to sit down with a skilled counsellor who can help you identify just what these problems following you around are, and how you can start addressing them in realistic ways...rather than just trying to run away from them, and finding that they follow you to places where you're going to be less and less equipped to deal with them.

 

what family doctor?

 

I live in a small country town. My family is dirt poor, one of the reasons I left was because of the severe lack of jobs...but when I hit the city, it was even more difficult, and tiresome because there were nights I didnt have a place to sleep at night.

 

I went up there, hoping to build myself back up from zero...but it proved too much for me so i ran back. I feel like a coward, because its just as hard here...only difference is, at least I have food in my belly and a roof over my head....for as long as my mom is alive, that is.

 

Im 24, btw.

 

Lately, ive had trouble forming relationships with my peers...and getting along with people. My last roommate was a recovering drug addict. She took me in but we had some differences...mostly drug related differences.

 

Now im back home, not sure what step to take. I came back home the other day....

[Jerseyguyy]

First and foremost your extremely young and have alotta years to get where you want to be. Most people dont start getting where they wanna be til there thirties like my parents an now they are happy as ever..

 

I think everyone who goes through issues.. Taking the easy way out pops into their heads at times. I fall victim to that aswell but i always come to realize that should never be a option. THERE IS NO NEED TO END YA LIFE.. Just knowing you have issues youre already in a place to start working on your self..

 

Your on loveshack so you do have internet access. Aswell as being on ls i feel you should try reading self improvment books things of that nature to help u get through these tough times, exercise.. Also you can try to find jobs in that small city before you actually move there. Try craigslist, indeed, monster.

 

I too am 24 and at a stand still in life but believe me we can overcome these problems. Good luck.

[SearchingForMyself]

First and foremost your extremely young and have alotta years to get where you want to be. Most people dont start getting where they wanna be til there thirties like my parents an now they are happy as ever..

 

I think everyone who goes through issues.. Taking the easy way out pops into their heads at times. I fall victim to that aswell but i always come to realize that should never be a option. THERE IS NO NEED TO END YA LIFE.. Just knowing you have issues youre already in a place to start working on your self..

 

Your on loveshack so you do have internet access. Aswell as being on ls i feel you should try reading self improvment books things of that nature to help u get through these tough times, exercise.. Also you can try to find jobs in that small city before you actually move there. Try craigslist, indeed, monster.

 

I too am 24 and at a stand still in life but believe me we can overcome these problems. Good luck.

 

Thank you for the encouraging words, I needed to hear that.

 

This tablet is actually my brothers. My old roomie jacked my laptop and sold it for drugs, so im not getting THAT back.

 

so im borrowing his for the time being.