Satu Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 It hit me out of the blue last night. Had a horrible dream about her and couldn't go back to sleep. I felt awful and small and emasculated last night. I eventually said "**** it" and came to work. I'm fine now. Dreams like that are your subconscious working out the dings and dents. 6 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 15, 2015 Author Share Posted April 15, 2015 Not at all offended. You had a terrible time and I hope it improve for you. Is that you on your avatar? Wow! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 15, 2015 Author Share Posted April 15, 2015 Dreams like that are your subconscious working out the dings and dents. Yep. I went through this same ***** when i divorced my xWW. Must be doing me good. I just closed the deal on a $255,000 millwork contract. 9 Link to post Share on other sites
lisbon67 Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 (edited) Lifewasted.... when your out in my town at night your more likely to bump into red heads alright. ...female shreks...or Susan Boyle types....maybe you like her too?...she's single ...and more likely female Ronnie Macdonalds. ...than Kelly Macdonald..and Dr Who...yes...the arch aliens . . ...and Paterlany. ..I'm glad you took our attempt at humour the way it was intended....are you from Russia or Poland maybe originally. ... Ps....hope they're s no Scottish women on LS...I was only joking if there is...If not I was serious . Edited April 15, 2015 by lisbon67 5 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 15, 2015 Author Share Posted April 15, 2015 Lifewasted.... when your out in my town at night your more likely to bump into red heads alright. ...female shreks...or Susan Boyle types....maybe you like her too?...she's single ...and more likely female Ronnie Macdonalds. ...than Kelly Macdonald..and Dr Who...yes...the arch aliens . . ...and Paterlany. ..I'm glad you took our attempt at humour the way it was intended....are you from Russia or Poland maybe originally. ... Ps....hope they're s no Scottish women on LS...I was only joking if there is...If not I was serious . Heh heh... I like Susan Boyle's voice, but she went nutso didn't she? She's a little too fat and frumpy for me. She's eaten too many fish and chips. I'm Californian of Scots and Ulster Scots descent. I had red hair as a kid but it turned dark brown in my 20s. No I'm not from Russia or Poland, although I do like borscht. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Paterlany Posted April 15, 2015 Share Posted April 15, 2015 Lifewasted.... when your out in my town at night your more likely to bump into red heads alright. ...female shreks...or Susan Boyle types....maybe you like her too?...she's single ...and more likely female Ronnie Macdonalds. ...than Kelly Macdonald..and Dr Who...yes...the arch aliens . . ...and Paterlany. ..I'm glad you took our attempt at humour the way it was intended....are you from Russia or Poland maybe originally. ... Ps....hope they're s no Scottish women on LS...I was only joking if there is...If not I was serious . Magyarország. Hungary. Not offended. I just hope LW sees a way to be happy. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 15, 2015 Author Share Posted April 15, 2015 Magyarország. Hungary. Not offended. I just hope LW sees a way to be happy. Oh I will be happy again one day. I'm a naturally upbeat guy. I won't let her steal my smile. 5 Link to post Share on other sites
lisbon67 Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 Yep...LH...I think Susan Boyle has been overdoing it a bit on the fish and chips and the fried Mars bars...but I wouldn't mind a tiny slice of her annual earnings. .. ps...I was thinking about Paterlany. ..when I thought about Russia or Poland... I knew you were from USA LH... Paterlany ..from Hungary...I was in Budapest about 5 years ago...I loved it...its a beautiful city... If only I could play tennis...I could've married Andy Murray s wife....now she is beautiful. .. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Paterlany Posted April 16, 2015 Share Posted April 16, 2015 Yep...LH...I think Susan Boyle has been overdoing it a bit on the fish and chips and the fried Mars bars...but I wouldn't mind a tiny slice of her annual earnings. .. ps...I was thinking about Paterlany. ..when I thought about Russia or Poland... I knew you were from USA LH... Paterlany ..from Hungary...I was in Budapest about 5 years ago...I loved it...its a beautiful city... If only I could play tennis...I could've married Andy Murray s wife....now she is beautiful. .. It is a beatiful city. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 16, 2015 Author Share Posted April 16, 2015 Man, this thread has taken some weird turns. Budapest was never something i thought of when I started this thread. 6 Link to post Share on other sites
lisbon67 Posted April 17, 2015 Share Posted April 17, 2015 Man, this thread has taken some weird turns. Budapest was never something i thought of when I started this thread. .....could be moving onto Hungarian Goulash in this thread LW....a fine after affair pick me up food... Ps...hope you doing ok pal 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Paterlany Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 You 2 make me smile! Sorry LW the thread changed but i get that you are a guy who will be happy. I don`t think life is ruined for you. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Lion Heart Posted April 18, 2015 Share Posted April 18, 2015 Jesus she wont give up! She left me a msg on my company voicemail asking me to call her and talk to her. She wants us to start over, wants me to forgive her, and says she is no longer seeing her OM. Of course I know that is a lie. I'm ignoring it, but I just don't get it. Her OM should be busy ****ing her into sexual bliss...why is she trying to get back with me? WW gf just realized OM can't finish her floors! Holeeeee where is that Life, one he** of a carpenter. You're more than her carpenter and way more than her doormat too. Great to hear you've been on your board, with the dolphins and your mates. EVEN better to hear the "didn't think of WWgf" line IMO. That's recovery on it's way for sure. Lion Heart. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 18, 2015 Author Share Posted April 18, 2015 WW gf just realized OM can't finish her floors! Holeeeee where is that Life, one he** of a carpenter. You're more than her carpenter and way more than her doormat too. Great to hear you've been on your board, with the dolphins and your mates. EVEN better to hear the "didn't think of WWgf" line IMO. That's recovery on it's way for sure. Lion Heart. I'm not doing as well this week. It's up and down. I'm going to a crawfish boil with some of the crowd tonight. Don't really want to but I can't sit and mope at home. Link to post Share on other sites
Hope Shimmers Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 I'm not doing as well this week. It's up and down. I'm going to a crawfish boil with some of the crowd tonight. Don't really want to but I can't sit and mope at home. You're doing the right thing. Don't let her prevent you from living your life. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Lion Heart Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 I'm not doing as well this week. It's up and down. I'm going to a crawfish boil with some of the crowd tonight. Don't really want to but I can't sit and mope at home. Dear Life, I read past your ocean day and saw you're having a downer, I wanted to point out the positive time you DID have. Life's not one long upper and don't get me wrong, I TRULY get the down part, I really do. Downs are gonna happen in life but they most definitely happen after heartbreak with betrayal. It's so sh**. The downs now are so far lower than "normal life". The ups are barely passing baseline. For me there are no "highs" right now. It's painful to even try to do the things that just might get you to baseline. It's so much effort. I crave "peace" so much. I get it at times then the turmoil in my mind resurfaces ALL over again. I'm noticing, though, the lows are not the lowest I've had since D Day. I don't even know what to CALL THOSE lows. Bad. Really bad. My lows now are just above bad. I notice that. I don't spend nearly as long there. Feels bad but the duration is shorter. I'm trying to point out progress. I know. As achievers, it's nowhere NEAR the level we know we're capable of. It's frustrating. So bad. But progress is progress and that's all we can hope for. Lion Heart. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 Thanks LionHeart. You understand. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 I don't want to do this but I guess I need to. Need to stay social. Social animal. Gregariousness... 4 Link to post Share on other sites
writergal Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 I don't want to do this but I guess I need to. Need to stay social. Social animal. Gregariousness... Healing from a breakup takes time, LW. Give yourself a break. Being social right now is good for you because it helps pass the time and keeps you focused on who and what is important to you right now. Time...is on your side. Time is very slow for those who wait. Very fast for those who are scared. Very long for those who lament. Very short for those who celebrate. But for those who love, time is eternal. - William Shakespeare 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Lion Heart Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 I don't want to do this but I guess I need to. Need to stay social. Social animal. Gregariousness... It's really about options / choices. We don't want to feel like crap. We don't want to get dressed up. We don't want to go out. We don't want to talk to people about stupid sh**. We don't want to hear OPs trivial problems. We don't want to make small talk. We want EVERYONE to scream about the injustice of IT ALL WITH US. It's not fair. Plainly just not fair. We do want to get past this. We do want to feel "nothing". We do want to get our sh** together. We do want to enjoy OPs company again. We do want to laugh and have full on belly laughs! We do want to feel joy, peace and love again. I guess we take baby steps where we used to bound after what we wanted. Now our injuries disable us. Just for now we have to go out even with our injuries and try to mask them. It's hard but it is what we have to do. We have to make sure this wayward individual does NOT define our lives. We MUST make sure we put EVERYTHING we can on that wound to heal it. Everything and anything! That means doing everything we DON'T want to do, SO we can have everything we do want again. It's Autumn here. Almost Winter. It's all very important to a biodynamic gardener like me (like the pre D Day me). It's a very symbolic time for me. Introspection. Putting goodness into my being, my soul. Preparing the beautiful soil for a new beginning. Spring. New Life. Boundless growth. I'm yearning so hard for that Spring to come but I'll have to go through Winter to fully appreciate it. I will love this Winter SO MUCH. I'm more determined than I've ever been to have the BEST Spring possible. I know you see my analogy because we are experiencing such similar things. Stay strong my friend. Lion Heart. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Author LifeWasted Posted April 19, 2015 Author Share Posted April 19, 2015 There is a conspiracy going on. She was there last night and I was pissed. I grabbed the guy who invited me and asked him why she was there, when his wife specifically told me she would not be. He hemmed and hawed and wouldn't give me an answer. My xWG's cronies are setting me up, trying to get us back together. I was pissed. I'm still pissed. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Steen719 Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 I don't blame you. Time for new friends. 5 Link to post Share on other sites
writergal Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 There is a conspiracy going on. She was there last night and I was pissed. I grabbed the guy who invited me and asked him why she was there, when his wife specifically told me she would not be. He hemmed and hawed and wouldn't give me an answer. My xWG's cronies are setting me up, trying to get us back together. I was pissed. I'm still pissed. I'd be pissed too if that happened to me. Time to remind your "friends" that you don't need nor want them to interfere in your love life. Especially your friends' wives; the same women who protected your xWG while she slept with those other men behind your back. Inviting your xWG to their party without telling you, that is an act of betrayal. Seriously, what is wrong with those people? The road to hell is paved with good intentions. Time to seek out new friends I think. Ones who don't know your xWG. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
CarrieT Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Yep; these people aren't your friends... Stay clear and start making new friends. 5 Link to post Share on other sites
merrmeade Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 There is a conspiracy going on. She was there last night and I was pissed. I grabbed the guy who invited me and asked him why she was there, when his wife specifically told me she would not be. He hemmed and hawed and wouldn't give me an answer. My xWG's cronies are setting me up, trying to get us back together. I was pissed. I'm still pissed.Be pissed. Stay pissed. You've got everything straight, LW. Stick with your guns. Take it from someone who's never even held a gun. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
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