movingon45 Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 I have ended our A 3 years ago. I deleted the app that we use to communicate, unfollowed him on social network, and I have removed him from my contact list. Yet, I put everything back whenever I get the urge to communicate. Shame on me for showing him my weakness. I have no excuse. We've had the closure. The only thing that we didn't have is DDay! Today I deleted the app again and I hope that I stay strong! He will always be my one true love and I can kick myself for choosing my husband over him when we were in college (he was my first love and my first bf) but nothing will come out of it. It's over. The greatest thing about deleting the app is NOT having the urge to look at my phone to see if he has a new message. He is so reliable and very quick to respond and he really gets me even if we're no longer communicating about our A. I know though that we can't be friends. Our connection is just that strong. I will always love him, but I don't have to act on my feelings. I will not try to forget him either because it just makes it worse. I've tried and I've cried but he's still in my mind. I just have to accept that though he was once part of my life, he can no longer be! Freedom from turning on the wifi! Yes! No new message. No new hurts. No lingering feelings of wanting to see him after that new message. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Popsicle Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 Congratulations on your newfound freedom. It is only a matter of time before your mind and heart will follow. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
lookingforclosure Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 I am trying to get to the point that I can delete my App as well...I feel it's the last thing that ties me to this...one day at a time. I have deleted numbers, emails, and other social media...but still have the last one we used to communicate with. I have found I don't constant open it like I did weeks ago. I will in time delete it, and slowly i'm deleting the pics too...what a long process but no tears today or yesterday...70 days NC from him...I haven't reached out in 19 days...getting stronger I think by the day 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Chasing_mya Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 Congrats! That's a big step towards your path to healing. I wish you the best. I know how difficult that must be and it says alot that you are making the effort. Link to post Share on other sites
irishguy Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 Havent read your story but why dont you just divorce your husband then try a relationship with this other guy since you believe ye have a connection .If you have no connection with your husband why would you stay with him . Link to post Share on other sites
Ronnie33 Posted March 20, 2015 Share Posted March 20, 2015 Havent read your story but why dont you just divorce your husband then try a relationship with this other guy since you believe ye have a connection .If you have no connection with your husband why would you stay with him . If you haven't read her story then maybe you shouldn't comment on a thread in the OW/OM section that has nothing to do with asking advice on her marriage or husband. 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted March 20, 2015 Author Share Posted March 20, 2015 Congratulations on your newfound freedom. It is only a matter of time before your mind and heart will follow. Thanks. I really hope so! It's an addiction. Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted March 20, 2015 Author Share Posted March 20, 2015 I am trying to get to the point that I can delete my App as well...I feel it's the last thing that ties me to this...one day at a time. I have deleted numbers, emails, and other social media...but still have the last one we used to communicate with. I have found I don't constant open it like I did weeks ago. I will in time delete it, and slowly i'm deleting the pics too...what a long process but no tears today or yesterday...70 days NC from him...I haven't reached out in 19 days...getting stronger I think by the day You are stronger in that you don't open the app. 19 days is great! The longest I haven't contacted him is 30 days, but only because I was waiting for him to answer. I hope that once you delete, you don't put it back like I did. Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted March 20, 2015 Author Share Posted March 20, 2015 Havent read your story but why dont you just divorce your husband then try a relationship with this other guy since you believe ye have a connection .If you have no connection with your husband why would you stay with him . It's just not an option. I can't reveal the reasons. Link to post Share on other sites
Author movingon45 Posted March 20, 2015 Author Share Posted March 20, 2015 If you haven't read her story then maybe you shouldn't comment on a thread in the OW/OM section that has nothing to do with asking advice on her marriage or husband. Thanks, Ronnie! I was really just sharing and maybe hoping for encouragement. Link to post Share on other sites
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