What she said: Romance / Sex first

[SupportiveGuy]

So I was doing my usual profile reading hobby on OKCupid (6+ years of dedicated research), and I stumbled upon a typical looking profile, well she stumbled upon my profile first, and liked my photo(s) from the quickmatch system...

 

I sent her a message telling her that her profile was interesting but I had no idea why she would like me.

I am starting to come to terms with the possibility that I'm cute or something.

 

So then she basically tells me that if I get (trick) a girl to have sex through romance, it triggers the female attachment process(, which is NOT anything reasonable, it's chemical). BECAUSE, no matter how much you (women) wish it, romancing a stranger is complete role playing and shows you NOTHING about a guy's true personality. Romance is emotional manipulation, it shows a man's intent only for sex, nothing else.

 

My master plan, which, just like everything else that old society says, is supposed to be the right way to do things, is unnatural and just might be a loser's approach. I want to get to know someone for who they are first, without all that romance and sex nonsense to worry about. It looks like I may have to bite the bullet and take a dip into the deep end. I don't like the idea of being dishonest, which is what "wooing" is, it's role playing, which is not a display of genuine personality, but since I am a pragmatic guy, I guess I'll have to completely lose all respect for myself and all women so that I can start the dishonest/romantic approach.

 

The reason I'm writing this rant is that it just made so much sense. So far, everything about male/female relationships that polite society has taught me has been a bold faced lie.

Another part of it is my long term plan to stop being the good and caring person I am if I'm still single by 30, which, of course, I won't tell anyone about after I'm that age. Basically, all of the principles and morals I hold dear are holding me back, and no amount of romantic idealization can alter the truth of the world. When I become a bad person and give into evil, I'm going to become irresistible to women. Too bad I won't be able to respect any woman once I'm 30 and still single. I'm a stubborn person, and I hold on to my values, but I just can't keep living a lie. My values are too deeply ingrained in me, and I'll always feel that what I have to do because it is natural is wrong, but once I cross that line, I will never be able to let myself go back.

 

I hate that I have to do this, and I hate that this is the true natural way of the world, but it's wrong to fight nature, nature always wins no matter what. I wish that a woman that they said was out there really was out there so that we could get to know each other for who we really are before doing the natural thing, but it's pointless, because she doesn't exist, and saying she does is just another romanticism, aka a lie. If any young men are reading this, very strongly moral and honest type guys like me, take a lesson from my scientific study of life, and make an exception in your relationships with women. They want a guy who can be deceptive. They want a liar and a cheat who can manipulate and twist their feelings into knots. They want an animal, not a real man, they want a natural creature, not a result of hard work and dedication to be better.

 

Whew, this is so liberating to say this. I feel like I'm finally ready to take the plunge and do what everyone else is doing, despite it being immoral. Even though I will never respect women again because of it. You see, in order to get your romance (ladies), you are supposed to bite the bullet too, and accept the hopeful nervous and vulnerable man who chisels his mind from stone to transcend the weaknesses of the flesh. I may not live much past 30, but at least now I know the truth about life, love, and everything in between. If only I could accept and respect the lies of society, then I would not be expecting to end it all, but I can't, I won't. The real world disgusts me, and as much as I wish I could live in the fantasy that polite society duped me into valuing, it is in my nature to ravenously pursue the essence of reality, to gain a true and complete understanding of it.

 

So this may be my last post on here, because who I am is going to die, and the person in my body is going to be nothing like me. I don't know how to overcome the desire to be with a woman, and nothing else in life matters to me anymore, it is all just gray, even with tons of depression meds. Nothing else really ever mattered, it was all just a diversion from my true goal. I hate what I will become, but I know I will love being it, and I will finally be satisfied in it.