What the hell am I doing?!

[imtrying211]

So I approached my ex at work yesterday asking if we could have a quick chat today, and now I'm dealing with major anxiety about my decision to speak to him. I was having a good day yesterday and thought it was time to break the silent treatment, and get this over with. My reason for doing it is that I want to move past the extreme awkward/uncomfortableness that I face every time and see him, and we don't speak or acknowledge each other. I just want to bring myself some peace so I can finally move on. I'm not looking to be friends with him, just to be civil adults while at work. My problem is now I don't even know what to say to him when we have this chat later on today. I want to say I forgive him, and understand why he left, but do I really? I feel like my head does, but my heart doesn't. I don't feel anger or hatred towards him, all I feel is pain that things ended the way they did. I'm still hurting, so have I rushed into this situation with him too soon? Am I not at a place where I should be having this conversation? I don't plan to back out of having the conversation, but am just afraid I'm expecting too much from it, and it won't give me what I need to let go of him, of us.

[brokengirl85]

i don't think there's a need to talk to him about the awkwardness of the situation but do what you think it's right for you. I personally think you're experiencing a high about the prospect of talking to him and later you'll feel worse, much worse.

 

In my opinion, you should cancel the meeting and continue with your life. You'll regret talking to him if you continue with your plans. Good luck

[ColdandLonelyinAK]

If he broke up with you, you are in no way obligated to initiate a meeting to clear the air. You would do better just to ignore him and move on. I know it's difficult given your work situation, but please trust me when I say NOTHING GOOD comes from seeking closure from a dumper or trying to improve things. Absolutely nothing but regret and even more pain.