This isn't going as planned but I'm still in it.

[Search4clarity]

I just want her to have faith and believe in me, have trust in herself and stick with it..

 

She isn't though. She considers giving up because she thinks I am, and I have considered, so she was right. I suck right now. She knows it. But I had a reason, I thought was obvious.

 

I'm doing everything to come up. I wanted her support, by being with me while I get it. I can't guarantee it to her, but in my mind I can.

 

I have confidence inside, but outside I ALWAYS say "well I'm not sure..."

 

Inside, I am 100% sure. But I leave an out. Because society makes it that hard for me.

 

The tests made to keep the undesired out also catch me. I am the dolphin, caught in a shark's net.

 

I am a dolphin, living and adapted to an area of the ocean that has a lot of sharks, and the most nets.

 

I am a dolphin, who's fins have hooks on them that are more likely to get snagged.

 

I am a dolphin, who's pathways are flooded with nets, because the other areas are taken up by other dolphins who formed the crowd to which I left.

 

Because I left, it was my fault, so if I get caught in the net, I can only blame myself.

 

 

SHE is my knife. With her by my side, I fear no net.

 

I'm still in it. And you're still sharp.

 

If I have to implant a magnet in me, I'll do it...

 

 

 

.. But what you done now, can't happen later. You know that. And I do too...

[BetrayedH]

Cryptic.

 

You're not a dolphin. Let's get real if you'd like some advice.

[understand50]

Cryptic.

 

You're not a dolphin. Let's get real if you'd like some advice.

 

What is the question?

 

Maybe, she does not know what you want or are saying.