So down

[Angeleyez2583]

I have been diagnosed as being clinically depressed, and have tried to kill myself about 3-4 times now (I am only 22). Now I am down. I live by myself, and all I do is lay around my apartment. I don't do much anymore (I am in college). I feel so alone. I'm also very shy, and when I meet people I always feel like they don't like me. Also, it's hard for me to talk to people. So I feel like I am back in my hole. Each day, it gets deeper and deeper. I feel so alone and so unloved. I'm afraid it might get so bad that something might happen. It's def. not to that point yet, but I'm starting to worry.

[Marshbear]

You are not alone. Remember that. You just feel depressed because you are hurting inside and the hurt needs to be expressed. If you have at least 1 friend talk to them. If you have family get in touch with them. If you get to the point that your depression is keeping you from doing daily activities then you need to seek professional help. Don't be afraid to seek help. The fact that you posted on this forum says you want things in your life to change. It is a good step.

 

You need to realize that happiness comes from within. Others cannot make you happy. The happiness comes when you feel good with you and that radiates out to others. To gain friends you need to be a friend. You go to college so find some class mates that have common interests as yourself and befriend them. They maybe just like you, shy and waiting for someone to break the ice. Be the ice breaker and take a chance. Will it hurt to try. Sometimes people can be cruel but just ignore them and keep trying because you are a special person looking for other special people. The worst that will happen if you don't try is that you will stay as you are but the best that can happen is that you will open up like a flower and show the world what a fun and interesting person you are. Take that chance. Dare to be what you think you can be.

[HoldOn]

Go to the doctor. please.