Author AnotherSadSong Posted July 3, 2015 Author Share Posted July 3, 2015 He said I never meant a thing to him and was just a f____ My guess he said it because he knew it would really hurt. A twist of the knife. And at some level he must have really felt this way in his mind at some point. If he is sex obsessed, he does not know what "love" actually is, it is all about "scoring" some for him, and especially some strange after being with the same one for a long time. What did you actually want? Him to D for you? And that masturbating thing, ewww yuck. You are well rid of him. He has some big issues. Yes, I too believe he meant those words. I was sickening on the phone. I actually asked those questions again and he kept reaffirming them. I cannot believe I lowered myself to do so. I was not in reality so I thought that over time and especially last year, he spoke with me at great lengths about problems, I thought we had a connection. I was a fool. Link to post Share on other sites
still_an_Angel Posted July 3, 2015 Share Posted July 3, 2015 He said I never meant a thing to him and was just a f____ No, turn this around, YOU kept him around for 4 years for YOUR ENTERTAINMENT. His statement was designed to hurt you, don't let him, you are free to pursue whoever you want. He is still in his sham of a marriage and he is not going anywhere. Chin up OP, he was a bad investment of your time and affection, but no more, bury him in the past and don't let his words bring you down. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author AnotherSadSong Posted July 3, 2015 Author Share Posted July 3, 2015 He said I never meant a thing to him and was just a f____ No, turn this around, YOU kept him around for 4 years for YOUR ENTERTAINMENT. His statement was designed to hurt you, don't let him, you are free to pursue whoever you want. He is still in his sham of a marriage and he is not going anywhere. Chin up OP, he was a bad investment of your time and affection, but no more, bury him in the past and don't let his words bring you down. This put a smile on my face. I am still queasy today, but it is mixed with relief and a strange calm. He said words that you cannot take back and the relationship is done for good. I have no desire for him to contact me. I have no desire to have him in my life. Link to post Share on other sites
Author AnotherSadSong Posted July 3, 2015 Author Share Posted July 3, 2015 Another thing is I am now really strikingly depressed that I am depressed. I moved from depression and now it is back and I do not want to go through this again. I made the biggest mistake giving up these years for a man who said the worst of words and then on top of that because he means them does not even care how I am affected and how my well being is. No cares. This is so unforgivable. I feel like I have been in the devils hands all these years. I am going to get moving today. It is going to take a big push. Link to post Share on other sites
Author AnotherSadSong Posted July 3, 2015 Author Share Posted July 3, 2015 I have been thinking today, quite a lot and came to a few realizations that are helping me with the situation. I started to feel really guilty about how I acted and things I said but stopped myself abruptly with these thoughts. He said you never meant anything to me and all you were was just a ****. By him saying this, I should have no care about what I said or how he took it because anything and everything that was said and done together for the last 4 years never meant anything anyhow. Right?? It is a waste of time and thought to care anymore. It never MEANT A THING in the first place. His words keep circulating like a song you have heard and cannot get out of your head, but this may be good for the short run of moving full steam ahead. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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