Author NewLeaf512 Posted September 24, 2015 Author Share Posted September 24, 2015 I was commenting on this post. I thought everything had hit the fan because evidence of your affair had been uncovered on his phone. I saw nothing about porn. Hi Gollum, As in the above post, I apologised in case I misread. I didn't mention the porn again just because I was sick of even writing the word porn. I also didn't mention the A so I can see why I may have been confusing. Link to post Share on other sites
Got it Posted September 24, 2015 Share Posted September 24, 2015 Now let's all hold hands and sing Kumbayah! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted September 25, 2015 Author Share Posted September 25, 2015 Now let's all hold hands and sing Kumbayah! I need a campfire for that 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted September 25, 2015 Author Share Posted September 25, 2015 5 October. thunderbirds say GO! 5 Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted September 27, 2015 Author Share Posted September 27, 2015 I've been shopping for my new look. I won't know what I will do without my usual black "uniform" Link to post Share on other sites
Got it Posted September 27, 2015 Share Posted September 27, 2015 I've been shopping for my new look. I won't know what I will do without my usual black "uniform" Ahhhh, but think of the possibilities! So many options! You can still go understated but add in some color to pop. Why not get a consultant to help you, a Nordstroms or equivalent, has them in house. Makes it so enjoyable! Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted September 30, 2015 Author Share Posted September 30, 2015 I have just found out from some former colleagues based in America ExLyingBastard has a new role in the company: in the ethics and compliance department I don't know if I should throw myself off the roof of my house, I have already vomited 2x, and I am in complete shock and hysterical Link to post Share on other sites
whatatangledweb Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 They suspended him then gave him a job in that department? How odd to give him the job there after violating company ethics. Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted October 1, 2015 Author Share Posted October 1, 2015 They suspended him then gave him a job in that department? How odd to give him the job there after violating company ethics. he has to have something on someone or I cant even imagine. I am taking valium and passing out. I honestly can NOT BELIEVE IT Link to post Share on other sites
ShatteredLady Posted October 1, 2015 Share Posted October 1, 2015 Hey NewLeaf. You have posted so kindly on some of my threads so I decided to read your entire story here. I've been through so much in the last year (& more) of my life & to be honest I've disappeared up my own bum over analyzing everything! Unlike some BS's I don't automatically condemn OW. Deep inside I see us all as just women trying to find our way in this world. You honorably looked for love & ended-up in a s**t storm. You've tried to be the best person you can be in a horrible situation & one day I hope you look back & make some sense of all of this. Like me, you have been through HUGE life altering experiences. My brother took his own life. I can only imagine your loss. I know my life is separated into 'before' & 'after'. I will never be the same person again. Extreme health devastation...again, before & after. These things not only make you reassess your life, they change you in so many ways....& just when you think you've got a handle on it, they change you again. Short term it's an insanity we can't even touch. Long term...I'm still discovering where my heart & brain are going to settle. I know this is one of those biodegradable statements but I still have to say it, 'Please stop beating yourself up!'. As I said, you're just a woman, looking for love. Think about everything you were going through in your life. Of course you held onto that man. You truly needed someone to hold you. I hope your life takes some great turns in the future & you can look back at all this as the 'dark ages'. You are an intelligent, compassionate, kind lady who chose the wrong path & got lost. I'm returning home to England next year & I would love to have a drink if our paths ever cross. On the subject of the BS. A lot of her behavior (attachment, confiscating phone etc) sounds like a lady who has turned to extreme self-help to desperately create an illusion of control in her life. There must be a book. I know a BS who did VERY similar things when she discovered her H's sexting, EA's etc. She was very religious & her H is a very attractive, successful lawyer. I've listened patiently to the logic of those 'therapy lifestyle marriage reinforcers'. I suspect his BS wasn't as ignorant of his past behavior as implied. I hope that this whole tragic mess is behind you now & you can recover & move on an even stronger, empathic, principled, HAPPY lady. Sadly, I don't think this will be the last crushing betrayal his BS will live. I hope she finds the strength to live authentically again too one day. Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted October 1, 2015 Author Share Posted October 1, 2015 Hey NewLeaf. You have posted so kindly on some of my threads so I decided to read your entire story here. I've been through so much in the last year (& more) of my life & to be honest I've disappeared up my own bum over analyzing everything! Unlike some BS's I don't automatically condemn OW. Deep inside I see us all as just women trying to find our way in this world. You honorably looked for love & ended-up in a s**t storm. You've tried to be the best person you can be in a horrible situation & one day I hope you look back & make some sense of all of this. Like me, you have been through HUGE life altering experiences. My brother took his own life. I can only imagine your loss. I know my life is separated into 'before' & 'after'. I will never be the same person again. Extreme health devastation...again, before & after. These things not only make you reassess your life, they change you in so many ways....& just when you think you've got a handle on it, they change you again. Short term it's an insanity we can't even touch. Long term...I'm still discovering where my heart & brain are going to settle. I know this is one of those biodegradable statements but I still have to say it, 'Please stop beating yourself up!'. As I said, you're just a woman, looking for love. Think about everything you were going through in your life. Of course you held onto that man. You truly needed someone to hold you. I hope your life takes some great turns in the future & you can look back at all this as the 'dark ages'. You are an intelligent, compassionate, kind lady who chose the wrong path & got lost. I'm returning home to England next year & I would love to have a drink if our paths ever cross. On the subject of the BS. A lot of her behavior (attachment, confiscating phone etc) sounds like a lady who has turned to extreme self-help to desperately create an illusion of control in her life. There must be a book. I know a BS who did VERY similar things when she discovered her H's sexting, EA's etc. She was very religious & her H is a very attractive, successful lawyer. I've listened patiently to the logic of those 'therapy lifestyle marriage reinforcers'. I suspect his BS wasn't as ignorant of his past behavior as implied. I hope that this whole tragic mess is behind you now & you can recover & move on an even stronger, empathic, principled, HAPPY lady. Sadly, I don't think this will be the last crushing betrayal his BS will live. I hope she finds the strength to live authentically again too one day. Hi ShatteredLady Thanks for your message. I am going to stop visiting LS very often. I do consider it behind me now. (unless exiDIOT does another stupid legal move) Regarding BS, just for clarity, she suffers from a diagnosed PD that apparently has it roots in her childhood, and unfortunately will have it for the rest of her life. It's my hope that BS can learn to cope the best she can within the confines of her issue and lives the happiest life she can however that may look for her. As for him I hope he never has a happy moment for the rest of his life no matter what that looks like, and that I never, ever cross paths with him again. It's not unintentional that I have made every attempt to ensure that does not happen. It seems like there comes a time in everyone who visits LS, no matter what their personal journey stops labelling themselves a "this" or a "that" There is no doubt that many of us would like to rewrite history and change things we did or said, myself included. Although I will carry with me forever the fact that I once was an OW for a time, I stopped being an OW and I will never again be one. For sure I'd like to be loved, I believe most people do, but for me, I will choose to get the love I need from my friends and small family. A man just isn't worth any risk. My happiness and sanity is worth everything. NL Link to post Share on other sites
Author NewLeaf512 Posted October 3, 2015 Author Share Posted October 3, 2015 93 days. Feel terrible Link to post Share on other sites
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