MoooOinkBaaa Posted July 9, 2015 Share Posted July 9, 2015 (edited) Just a bit of background. Me and my ex were together seven years, we were very deeply in love and gave ourselves 100%. We were our first loves. She left me two years ago and is with someone else now. I still think about her everyday and often dream of her. Usually the dreams are vague and I remember her back as I am trying to call her name but she walked too far to hear my call... to hear my voice. This recent dream was very vivid and life-like. I can't even explain how realistic it felt. We were sat on her sofa, our bodies encompassed together. It felt just right, like two matching jigsaw pieces. Just enjoying the moment. It felt so real. The smell of her perfume. The softness of her hair touching my face. The weight of her body pressed upon mine. I felt so happy in the moment. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach just like the day we first met. She tilted her head backwards into my chest, looked up into my eyes smiling and told me those three words. I love you. Hearing those words, together with her voice overwhelmed me. I could sense something wasn't right and this is where the dream got strange. I felt lost, I looked around the room and back at her. I asked her to repeat the words. She did, and I got the same eery feeling that something wasn't right. I looked her dead in the eyes and I said, "No, you don't love me, I can feel it, I know it". She grabbed my hands and promised me that she loved me and always will, no matter what. She was getting upset that I suggested she didn't. I still wasn't convinced by her words, I knew she didn't love me. I just didn't know why. I started to feel nauseous, like that feeling of deja vu where you swear you've seen something, but you know you haven't. This is where the whole situation started to feel impossible. I thought "Am I dreaming?". Here is my ex telling me she loves me but she can't love me, because she left me and we haven't seen each other for almost two years. I tried to think of a way to be certain I was dreaming. I used my hands to stretch my cheeks but I could feel it. I looked outside her window and saw the street below. Everything was legitimate but I still knew it must be a dream because I remembered why she doesn't love me. I realized it must be a dream set in a different point of time, a time when she did still love me. At this point I knew I was in the past and this led me to hack my own dream to know for sure I was dreaming. I turned to her and said: "What year is it?" She gave me a baffled look and said: "It's 2007, why?". Hearing her say 2007 made me feel overwhelmingly sad because everything felt so real I was hoping she would say 2015, meaning it wasn't a dream after all. I would give anything to be with her again but now I knew I would lose her once I woke up. I looked at her and said: "No, it's 2015 and you don't love me". She thought I was fooling around, telling me to stop being silly. I grabbed her laptop and the date displayed was indeed 2007 but I knew it was just my brain trying to trick me into believing it's 2007. It was her old laptop, the one we used to stay up all night playing point and click video games on. I logged into my e-mail address to show her the e-mails she sent me during our break-up. They were all there, dated 2013. She took the laptop off me clicking through the e-mails. I left her to read through them. I haven't had a lucid dream for years, it felt so real yet surreal. I didn't want to wake up. I wanted to explore where I was. I walked into her room and started looking around. Everything was there, my dream was expanding on the fly as I explored it's realm. I opened the chest of drawers expecting the inside to be black, like a missing texture in a video game, something that was never programmed in because it was not intended to be seen but they were full of clothes and objects. I looked inside her pillowcase where she used to keep all my letters and they were there. I decided to return to the living room to check her progress on the e-mails but she was gone... I checked all the rooms but she was nowhere to be seen so I ran outside to find her. I could see her in the distance running away. I am a fast runner in real life and I tried my hardest to catch up with her but the closer I got the more I was running in slow motion. At this point the dream started to become unstable but I needed to find out her reaction to the e-mails, why did she run? I had to get answers and I tried so hard to run fast but I couldn't get any grip. I got close but then I woke up. The whole dream must of been twenty minutes long but it felt like hours. I just lay in bed thinking what the hell just happened. I couldn't stop thinking about it all day. It was such a strange dream I had to share it. I guess my dreams can trick my mind but not my heart. Edited July 10, 2015 by MoooOinkBaaa Link to post Share on other sites
SoThatHappened Posted July 10, 2015 Share Posted July 10, 2015 Wow. If all of that's true, you were able to do things in dreams that I (and I'm assuming most people) can't do. Such as, read, type, etc. Our minds are unbelievable, for sure. I've had very vivid dreams before, but nothing that detailed. Did you do/eat/drink anything out of the norm yesterday? Also, sorry to hear what you've been through the last couple years. Link to post Share on other sites
Plaster Posted July 10, 2015 Share Posted July 10, 2015 I had a strange dream about my ex the other night. We were together, and she was doing my head in for some reason, I shoutes at her and got annoyed with her and couldn't stand her at that moment in time. Next thing I knew she had left me a note saying that she had left me for someone else that treated her better. And I was distraught! Similar to our relationship ending really, although she just rebounded fairly quickly and is still with him now. Oh well Link to post Share on other sites
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