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OP,sorry to hear that you are feeling down again ...

 

I'm not sure if you mentioned it or not, but have you ever seen a medical doctor to get his or her opinion about your depression and what steps to take? While I would never suggest medication on its own, it can be really helpful in cases of true depression when combined with therapy.

 

There's a lot of different types available, from an herbal remedy like St. john's wort to SSRI's and SNRIs tricyclics and more. If your doctor feels that one of these is appropriate in your particular situation, they can help you decide which is best for you.

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Hi Jenkins, let me offer a virtual hug from one depressive to another x. It really is a truly cruel condition - when you most need human warmth, distraction, exercise, fresh air and all those good things, all you want to do is to retreat into your cave. The only answer is to fight that urge with all your strength - see a doctor, take exercise, find things to do, ask for help from those who love you (not OW!). I have been there SO MANY times beleive me. Don't let the depression carry you down to its lair - it's a monster!

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Jenkins we are here for you. Remember that life has its ups and downs, we never stay at one place for long that's why we should appreciate the good times and not lose our hope during the bad times. What happened can be used by you in a creating and self improvement way rather than with disastrous and hopeless thoughts. You need some changes in your marriage, your wife, the way things are handled but most importantly in yourself. Take it step by step, one goal at a time, dont panic, and this way I am sure you will have results. Hugs.

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Thank you so much for your messages of support guys! You are amazing! Great to see some familiar names coming to me when I asked for you! I knew you would be there for me.

 

I take all your points on board and I really appreciate all the solid advice about remedies, etc, which I will look into.

 

I want to make the point that while I am feeling down and a little depressed, I feel that it is for the right reasons! i.e. I am fully accepting and coming to terms with my selfishness, the hurt and damage I've caused and acknowledging my weaknesses, vulnerabilities and my dark side. What I did was wicked, and I am not hiding behind excuses or validations any more. I am facing it full on. This is a part of the process of recovery and I think there is genuine hope there.

 

I reached rock bottom a few days ago and I feel I am starting to come out the other side. I don't want to say too much too soon in case I relapse, but the signs are really encouraging.

 

I just want you to know that you guys have made a genuine difference to a very lost soul. You have helped me find direction and strength and I will never forget your warmth and support.

 

I will post more soon! I feel I will be back to my normal posting self very soon!

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