Met up with the ex bf. Next step?

[gwenn]

Good day everyone

 

About 3 days ago I met up with my ex bf of 3 years. I asked him out for dinner for a catch up. It has been 5 weeks of ANC. That night, overall everything was okay , no harsh feelings, no talking about the old relationship, just updates on each other's life. He was showing me his vacation pics and we were just chatting around a bit. He then dropped me home and we hugged awhile. He gave me back my soft toys ( which he even packed nicely).

 

That night I decided to send him a message, I told him I'm glad that we end this relationship as I've really took this opportunity to grow up a lot, I thanked him for the memories and told him I never regret fighting for him and wished him all the best. I didn't care if I'm gonna say the wrong thing or not I just feel like I wanted him to know all these. FYI I flunked up things once : Met up with him for dinner too just one week after the BU, I thought everything was going well and made a huge mistake that night for telling him we should be getting back together. It has been 5 weeks since. He replied telling me the same , he told me that I'm the one who made him who he is today, he knew he been through a lot and he told me he's glad to hear that I'm doing well. He also added that we should catch up as best friends since we knew each other so well and he will be there for me when I need him. He also said 'If we're meant to be, we'll be together in the end'. I can't agree more to that.. I just replied with a 'suree'. We never talked since.

 

 

I felt relieved after telling him that. But at the same time I really still love this guy and I knew deep down his heart , he felt the same. We fought very hard before for our relationship, but ever since we started college things started to fall apart. Because I was putting too much time on our relationship while he feels now is not the right time to do so and should prioritize our studies instead. I didn't realised all these back then, if I did maybe things would be different. But I truly believe things happened for a reason so I ahve no regrets, because at that time it feels like the right thing to do.

 

I guess since we're both so young, most of the advice would be asking me to 'move on' , 'date other people' and stuffs like. But at this moment I just want to love myself, I just want to learn to be happy again by myself. And I feel like the best bet to get back together with him is to do so. Maybe all we need is to experience life on our own before falling back together. It may take months or years. But what really does matter is what happened in the end. I need to change for the better, and I sincerely hope the best for him too. He was the most loving boyfriend ever. I had good connection with his family too we went on vacation together several times. We been to almost everywhere together in our town. They were ALL beautiful memories and I never regret anything. I just know that I have to have patience, if we're meant to be , we will be together in the end. And I would appreciate if you guys had any advice to give. I would take them in and move towards where I'm supposed to , can't wait to become the better me ! ( PS: I miss you W! Hope you're doing well too!)