Learned a hard lesson the worst way possible............................

[Radil]

Wow I have to say this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Whatever you do in life..if you truely love the person you are with NEVER cheat on them. I learned the hardway and I am paying the ultimate price for all of this. We are still together and working thru everything but I miss so much of what we had together. We took a few steps back and I now live alone and we are dating just each other. It is a start but it is so hard. I deal with the guilt every minute of the day on what I did to her. It was so selfish of me and I cannot believe I let a bunch of outside stress influence me to do what I did to start with. What makes it worse is it opened my eyes and heart into how much I really love her and watching her deal with the pain is just multiplied. I am used to being around her every minute of the day so this not living together makes everything really tough. I am not giving up on what we have though...it may kill me in the process but damn't this is my fault and I want to try and make things right if that is even possible. Thanks for all the support here. I have needed it greatly. If you want the story you can read my other thread about the anger stage.

[majorthird]

It seems like you're getting the chance to make things right again.

 

Hope for the best, aim for the best too. Give it your all. I think stuff like this - in the long run - can bring you closer than you'd ever be without it. Eh... i think it would be very important to keep the sex as exciting and special as possible... (or is that a weird thing to say?)

 

Best of luck and lots of strength!

[Radil]

Thanks major but here is what makes it tough for her. Everytime I am around she has her moments and just thinks about me with the other woman. She loves me and doesn't want to end it now..she wants to see how it all works out. It is very very hard right now....because it is hard to make up for something like this when the other person isn't willing to believe you. It is going to take time and I wil post our progress. I did upset her today because she asked me something about the relationship and I told her the truth and it made her angry again. So now she isn't talking to me but hopefully later after she calms down some she will. I would be a traveling spokesman on NOT TO CHEAT because this is the worst time I ever had in my life. I guess you always get paid back in some form and this is my punishment.

[Donburi]

I hear ya...I really do. Was with the love of my life for three years, and because I'm a stupid, weak, insecure woman, I potentially ruined our future. Biggest mistake of my life...I'll gladly join you in being a spokesman on this.

 

Sounds like you're doing ok though...I know its rough not seeing them as often, I saw my bf almost everyday...I don't know where we are at this point.

 

Just wondering, did your gf take you back right away, did you convince her, or did she just decide eventually? My bf doesn't know what to do, he says right now he doesn't want to be with me, but he says he can't speak for the future...

 

Well anyways...stay strong. You'll get through this.

[Radil]

well we were together still until yesterday. We are still best friends if that makes any sense but she cannot deal with the fact I cheated so she said we aren't dating now. She doesn't want to see anyone else and isn't. She loves me still very very much but is just fixated on the fact she cannot be with someone who cheated. I understand her thoughts and I just need to give her a break. I am not giving up on us even though she said I already did. I want her in my life in some fashion and she wants me in hers. I hope she will change her mind with some time and let me try again.