Proving yourself to others?

[lookin ahead]

Have you ever felt like proving yourself to others who thought you were nothing without them? I always felt i had something to prove and i am working on that. It has been a year and a half since my divorce, we haven't spoken ever again which is best. But he always made me seem like i was nothing without him and he made it seem like i would be dying in a corner wilting away. He always made me feel so small, so little. That never happened, I got up, dust myself off, it took a few months to get myself together, and i survived. The first few months was Hell trying to get over the sadness, i'm still sad, hurt, mad, angry still sometimes but i don't let it affect me.

 

How can someone be so strong? Now i look back to everything i went through and i am very strong and don't give myself enough credit. This is why at times i wish i can prove to him, how i didn't die without him like he thought i would. How i wasn't scared to take charge of my life and change everything wrong that was in it. I wish i could prove to him that i am more than he would ever imagine me to be. I just really hate him for everything he did to me and i just kind of really wish he knew that i am better without him.