Insanely depressed -- missing her and dealing with stress

[TDash]

For reference: I'm a 24-year-old guy and she's 21.

 

I guess this post is more of a venting type of deal, just to release some kind of emotional energy rather than bother my family. I met my girlfriend online in June 2012. At the time, I was still hung up on my first love (and remained so until mid-2013!). We merely talked sporadically over the course of a year and a half, just as friends. I'd told her that I'd call her one night, but I failed to live up to saying that.

 

Then, one night in January 2014, I was having an extremely bad day, and wanted to do anything to get my mind off of some things. She texted me out of te blue. I called her. Things changed in my life, from then on there. We talked every single night for over six months. I found out practically everything about her, and vice versa. She decided to come visit me during the first week of August 2014. 6 hours and 45 minutes away. We Skyped for the very first time right before that.* Long story (obviously short), she came to meet me, we met up at a nearby Wal-Mart, stayed with me a week, I showed her around the area, and we had an amazing time. Skipping ahead...

 

She came back in, in November 2014, then we didn't see each other for four months. She came back in, again, in March 2015. Then, I finally made the trek down there in late May (she finally told her family about me; she didn't want them to flip out because we'd met online), things went great. I went back in July -- again, a great time. Aaand then she came back here in August, and she just came back again this past weekend.

 

Now I don't know when we'll see each other again. I'm gonna try to see her one more time before winter.

 

I'm extremely depressed. No energy at all! It feels like her leaving yesterday caused more depression than usual! I'm taking college classes and fairly stressed out. Guess that added to the sadness, just heading back to the usual routine without her. But I'm in such a fog mentally. Can't think or write well. Just wanted to vent about it. I'll probably write more later.

[emi]

13 hours flight.

Different culture, different race, different language.

My parents arent supportive.

I would trade anything for your situation