louisthe15th Posted September 22, 2015 Share Posted September 22, 2015 After what I went through with my 1 year relationship (Ya I said it.. 1 year and I'm at lose for emotions) I swear I'll never date again - as dramatic as it sounds. Relationships are crazy guys. People are crazy. Some just don't know what they want. I've been saying this to some friends of mine.. But I feel so dead inside. Emotionless. Sleeping all the time. No motivation. I've been NC for almost a month. And everyday I'm thinking about her. I need to vent for like 2 hours everyday, and talk to someone to remind me of what I went through otherwise I go crazy. And I don't want to sound like Mr. Negative and I get that this phase I'm in is part of the grieving process.. But at my age, going through some of the relationships I have, and seeing the world for what it is.. I swear I can't believe that I'll ever find this 'love' thing.. LOL And to be honest, I don't even want it. I cannot go through what I'm going through again. They talk about this viscous cycle that bad guys and bad girls put good girls and good guys into.. But it's true. You take a innocent soul like mine.. Ya I've seen some crazy ****.. but if anything it fueled me more to push the 'love' thing cause it's so important. But like damn.. Again, I get the short end of the stick. Maybe it's my choice in women. Probably is. But even the ones I choose seem like they want what I talk about so bad.. But then it backfires. Sorry.. just venting. I'm hurt like #*$& Link to post Share on other sites
warshaw Posted September 22, 2015 Share Posted September 22, 2015 Yes it sounds dramatic that you'll never date again. I get that you're hurting but it was one year. 12 months with this person. Get a grip on yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
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