Lack of confidence

[louisthe15th]

Before my X my confidence was through the roof. After years and years I finally figured out who I was. After dating this girl, always feeling like she was lieing to me then her running back to the X so fast, sleeping around around with a bunch of overly charimatic confident guys only a month after we broke up.. And the simple fact alone that as much as a piece of **** she was, she hasnt even called to say whats up.. Nothing.. And u said u loved me.. Honestly.. I find myself completely re evaluating all my life choices. I feel like a loser big time though I know I'm not. I find myself idealizing these punk party kids that spend all hours of the day thinking about their next girl to trap.. These tattooed, fast car driving want to be playboys. Like I mean, thwt guy has always been in me.. But I did it without the show boating.. And girls ive been with have seen right through the beat up Dodge, and the ripped jeans and still were facinated. Now I see her dating and following these punks and everything I believed against is now becoming things I want.

 

Maybe i shouldnt have focused so much on saving for a house, maybe i shouldve got that tattoo or motorcycle. Maybe i shoulve gone to clubs, and focused more on the social status. Cause when she fell for me, she knew i didnt give a **** about thst ****. Now were done and shes running to it. Like, people like me are abnormal. And im stsrting to feel it.

[LoveIsMyReligion]

No man, you're alpha and those kids who have to be in a group 24/7 and co-depend on each other are beta.

 

Keep doing what you're doing. The only thing I would re-think is the house. I bought a house when I was 23, it was awesome. Then after a year I realized that I am way too young to settle down in one place. So I sold my house and funneled my time, money, and energy into the gym, my career, and travelling the world.

 

You have to learn to enjoy the present and have a good time now. I could be completely wrong but I get the feeling that you may be living for the future and you assume that once you get this house all your problems will be solved... but in reality you will just find another carrot to chase.

 

Figure out the things that make you happy and do them. Step out of your comfort zone and try some stuff you normally wouldn't. I definitely wouldn't get a tattoo or buy skinny jeans to try and impress women; I find that girls are more attracted to men who look like they are happy being single rather than the douche bags who go chasing after them.