"Reason to live" Book

[Photofinish]

I've always had it tough in life.

 

Kicked out of college

I live in an abusive house hold with my mother whom I also have to share a bed with.

I do not getto sleep because my mother is a baby sitter and babies start crying starting 7am. I am always dozing off.

I live in a poverty struck neighborhood

I'm trying hard to establish a career and get a job to move out but I need time. I'm trying so hard but everything falls through. I'm 23.

 

There are moments where I just lose hope and my boyfriend is the one who reminds me to keep going that someday I will have my own apartment and job .

 

Is a scrap book full of things that make me happy a dramatic idea? Had anyone made a "reason to live" book? I actually got the idea from a meme but it will be a book for me to open when I'm down.

 

I was gonna fill it with pictures of my boyfriend, friends, pets, life goals, houses, food , and other things that just...Make me happy.

 

Is this a thing?

[Gloria25]

Wow,

 

Interesting thread/post and I thank you for it. It jogged my memory.

 

Yes, in my tweens/teens I sorta had like a little notebook where I would write out my goals and stuff. I also had sort of a diary where in my darkest moments, I'd jot down what was going on. Eventually, I, from the suggestion(s) of others, adopted like these books of daily affirmations - where each day of the month for the entire year, consisted of passages about stuff (relationships, goals, etc) to keep me inspired, uplifted and on track.

 

Yes, I did/would take clips from my fav magazine and put in like folders to remind me of my goals, fashion style, etc.

 

I admire you for persevering through this. Stay strong and stay the course. I myself came from a difficult childhood and gosh, I didn't know how I was gonna get out of it - ever. I only knew I wanted education and to put on professional suits and work in businesses. Little did I know that to get there I'd end up in the military and back in the U.S.

 

Not sure of your religious beliefs, but pretty much "where there's a will, there's a way". Keep on plowing through and the path - when God's willing - will open up for you. May not be what/how you expected, but God helps those who put one foot forward.

[Photofinish]

Wow,

 

Interesting thread/post and I thank you for it. It jogged my memory.

 

Yes, in my tweens/teens I sorta had like a little notebook where I would write out my goals and stuff. I also had sort of a diary where in my darkest moments, I'd jot down what was going on. Eventually, I, from the suggestion(s) of others, adopted like these books of daily affirmations - where each day of the month for the entire year, consisted of passages about stuff (relationships, goals, etc) to keep me inspired, uplifted and on track.

 

Yes, I did/would take clips from my fav magazine and put in like folders to remind me of my goals, fashion style, etc.

 

I admire you for persevering through this. Stay strong and stay the course. I myself came from a difficult childhood and gosh, I didn't know how I was gonna get out of it - ever. I only knew I wanted education and to put on professional suits and work in businesses. Little did I know that to get there I'd end up in the military and back in the U.S.

 

Not sure of your religious beliefs, but pretty much "where there's a will, there's a way". Keep on plowing through and the path - when God's willing - will open up for you. May not be what/how you expected, but God helps those who put one foot forward.

 

 

It's really inspiritng to read about someone who made it out.

 

I feel like I might lose sight of it (psychically too as I have no where to store it ) when things get really bad. I guess it's a desperate attempt.

 

I'm not religious at all. I feel like I cant be with the life I've lead.

 

Do you have any other advice for "pushing" forward? I feel like i'm reaching my end. =/

[Els]

Photofinish, if you think if a scrap book will help then by all means do so. Personally (and I mean no offense, but I really want to try to help you and I can't think of a better way to phrase it) I think it would be a better idea to spend 100% of your time and effort getting out of your situation instead.

 

Why did you get kicked out of college? Do you think your abusive household and the environment you live in contributed to that? Could you possibly take a student loan, move out and live cheap with roommates, start in college again? Or the other option, take a short skills training course as a barista or waitress etc and then work and move out?

[Photofinish]

Photofinish, if you think if a scrap book will help then by all means do so. Personally (and I mean no offense, but I really want to try to help you and I can't think of a better way to phrase it) I think it would be a better idea to spend 100% of your time and effort getting out of your situation instead.

 

Why did you get kicked out of college? Do you think your abusive household and the environment you live in contributed to that? Could you possibly take a student loan, move out and live cheap with roommates, start in college again? Or the other option, take a short skills training course as a barista or waitress etc and then work and move out?

 

I am I really am. I recently joined an IT course that will help me get an entry level job right after graduation. It starts next week so at the moment I'm not doing much. I'm putting all my hope into the 3 month course.

 

 

I got kicked out for bad grades. My GPA fell because I failed chemistry about 4 times with lab and failed to pass it again. I fear that even if I apply again and get re admitted , there is little point as grad school is prob out of the question. I will get my B.A/B.S but I dont think I'll use the degree. I majored in psychology out of desperation to not get kicked out but chem followed me.

 

I commuted . I didnt live on campus. The thing is I have no savings and it's literally impossible to get any old job and move out here in New York City. I dont know about other states but the cheapest rent that can be found here is about $1,200 for a one bedroom or maybe a two bedroom but min wag is about $8.00. It doesnt add up , I would have to work more then 8 hours everyday to make ends means and the job market isnt there either. I'm hoping that with the end of the IT course I am able to move in with a female roommate. I've been trying to move out for the last two years. I've become a petstylist, it wasnt enough. I tried being a waitress, I was making less then min wage. I just do not have the funds. It's embarrassing I live here at 23 . I've really been trying . I dont think school was going to help me anyways. I kept forcing myself to go rather then to focus on moving out so the motivation wasnt there , hench my bad grades.

 

It's just not as easy as it use to be or easy for someone without the finical background . I have no money in my account.

[SpiralOut]

Make a scrapbook if you think it will help. I went through a difficult period some years back and I kept a notebook where I wrote poetry. It comforted me to re-read my favourite entries.

[Els]

I am I really am. I recently joined an IT course that will help me get an entry level job right after graduation. It starts next week so at the moment I'm not doing much. I'm putting all my hope into the 3 month course.

 

That's great! Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 

I commuted . I didnt live on campus. The thing is I have no savings and it's literally impossible to get any old job and move out here in New York City. I dont know about other states but the cheapest rent that can be found here is about $1,200 for a one bedroom or maybe a two bedroom but min wag is about $8.00.

You should definitely not try to get an apartment all to yourself. Students and even fresh grads usually share a place, the more roommates you have the cheaper the rent usually is. Also it's quite common for people to live in the suburbs and commute to the city as it can be a lot cheaper this way. Is this possible near NYC?

 

It's just not as easy as it use to be or easy for someone without the finical background . I have no money in my account.

It is definitely not easy, I empathize. Hence my suggestion for student loans etc. If you manage to get out of your abusive and sleep-depriving home situation you may find many other areas of your life automatically improve.

[Photofinish]

That's great! Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 

You should definitely not try to get an apartment all to yourself. Students and even fresh grads usually share a place, the more roommates you have the cheaper the rent usually is. Also it's quite common for people to live in the suburbs and commute to the city as it can be a lot cheaper this way. Is this possible near NYC?

 

It is definitely not easy, I empathize. Hence my suggestion for student loans etc. If you manage to get out of your abusive and sleep-depriving home situation you may find many other areas of your life automatically improve.

 

Thank you, Elswyth I really appreciate it . I know that once I move out my life will really begin and I can actually live a normal happy life. I just have to work for it .After everything falls into place I'll go back to school and starting doing all the things I never could (I dream about having my own room!! )

 

The thing about NYC is that as the number of bed rooms goes up , so does the rent at a massive amount. 1 bedrooms cost almost as much as 2 and 3 bedrooms are so expensive there is no point in getting a third roommate. Without a car it's impossible to commute to the city (tolls are expensive)

 

I'm giving myself 6- 12 months of dealing with this hell in order to be able to move out and not be worried about paying rent month to month . I should have enough saved by then that I dont have to touch my savings and it can grow.

 

I do plan to leave the city as it is very expensive but I dont want to leave my friends and boyfriend behind =/ Itll be a choice I make when the time comes...

 

 

Thank you everyone