memomma Posted May 19, 2005 Share Posted May 19, 2005 Alight.......I'm not quite sure what's going on. I have been waiting for my attorney to draw up the divorce papers so I could go in to sign them. They will then be mailed to my husband who continues to live here at home...we are officially separated under the same roof. Her office called today to say the papers were ready and asked if I could come in tomorrow. I told her I could not. There is really no legitimate reason I could not have went in other than I guess I just wasn't ready for it. I put her off until Thursday of next week. Why am I doing this? Now, I'm sort of freaking out in a way thinking about the finality of this. I really don't understand my emotions. It's been months since I've made the decision to divorce. Years since our problems began and now I'm acting like I'm not sure..... I don't quite get it. Is it normal to be scared to do this? I just know he's going to start crying or something and I am not sure I'm ready to deal with the whole mess now that it's time to begin. Just trying to sort things out...... Link to post Share on other sites
Mz. Pixie Posted May 20, 2005 Share Posted May 20, 2005 IMO it's normal. I felt the same way. I had this nervous pit in my stomach like I'd just had a car accident or something. When it was actually final- well, it was hard to digest. Also, I was the one who wanted the divorce so I can't imagine what it would be like to be on the other end. When is he moving out????????? It's a sad thing ending a marriage, no matter what end you are on. Link to post Share on other sites
Author memomma Posted May 20, 2005 Author Share Posted May 20, 2005 We haven't talked in detail about him moving out. I'm trying to avoid a scene because 2 of my 3 children are still here at home. I was hoping as long as we could remain civil to one another that he could stay until we actually sell the house.....I've been rethinking that idea though because when he is home.....I feel so tense and uncomfortable and I'm not sure that is appropriate for anyone here in the house. I reread my journal entries this morning from a year ago. I had written then that the marriage was over and that I had given him an ultimatum......either see a marriage counselor to work on the marriage or else see a lawyer. He had agreed at that time to see a lawyer. That tells me that nothing has changed and the feelings are simply feelings of fear related to the unknown. I'm going ahead with my decision to divorce despite the fear. I really cannot continue to put if off any longer or to ignore what my heart is telling me. We should no longer be married. Link to post Share on other sites
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