Do you think I will ever have a chance with her again?

[loverage21]

I am a 21 year old guy and I have found myself attached to this girl and I can't seem to detach. I have intense feelings for her that I can't seem to shake.

 

Around 3 months ago, me and this girl met up and had sex. We lost our virginities to each other. It was the first time she was ever touched down there by a guy (other than stimulation above the underwear where there was no skin-to-skin contact). I met her online about a month prior. We hit it off and we texted and snapchatted on a daily basis. Sometimes all day long. We agreed on a day to meet up and we finally did. Got a hotel room for the two of us. Met her at a mall, walked around, bought both of us Italian ice. I took her back to the hotel, showed her the stuffed plushie toy I got her (she was obsessed with dogs, specifically collies so I got her a stuffed collie).

 

Immediately after I showed her the toy, I grabbed her and pinned her against the wall and started passionately making out with her. We did so for a few minutes and she expressed her concern that maybe she was not ready. I backed off and toned it down. She got on the bed and laid there and sbe watched TV. I just stood there thinking for a few seconds. Then I decided to get on the bed and lay right next to her and we started to cuddle.

 

We started to make out again. As we were cuddling and making out she started to dry hump my leg. I then got the signal and started to reach my hand down the backside inside her panties. Then I slowly started to move my hand towards the front. Then I started to slowly move my hand down some more. I felt something incredibly wet and I knew she was turned on. I started to finger her as we we still making out. She then reaches her hand down there and I am starting to think she was trying to pull my finger out. But then she did the unexpected and started moving my finger in and out of her vagina. Then that signaled me again and I pull her pants and panties down and I take them off. I then start to finger her some more, nos inserting two fingers.

 

I then reached for the condoms on the night stand. I pull my pants and underwear down and I slide on a condom. I then start to rub my penis over her vulva. Just back and forth. Then I started to stick it in. I try to get her to move her knees all the way to her chest for a full missionary position but she was getting stuff at this point. I try to slide it in deeper but she was tight and rather uncomfortable. So I try some more foreplay and fingering and I get out the water based lube and rub some of it on my condom. Then I tried to stick it in again.

 

All and all, I got my penis half way in. I let her get to wiggle my penis in to try to make it more comfortable. But my penis was too rock hard and too far in and it would not budge. I tried a few minutes of giving her oral.

 

I tried to thrust again and this time I was making out with her as I was thrusting. She started to make gasping noises and I paused and she made a sweet sad face and softly went "ow". I comforted her.

 

I then pulled out. She needed to get home and she let me see her boobs (I only had her bottom half exposed as we were having sex). I felt them and sucked on them.

 

At the last minute she decided to clean up and hop into the shower. I hopped in with her and I wrapped my arms around her as we were in the shower. I slipped a finger inside her bum and she immediately pulled it out and said "what the f***." I apologized and did not attempt that again.

 

When we got out she was standing up against the edge of the bed. We started looking at the blood from where I popped her cherry. She was in disbelief. Like she was amazed. She also said the sex was not as bad as she was expecting.

 

I then stood in front of her again. Both of us standing up I looked her in the eyes and I put the tip of my condomless penis up against her vulva and she said, "wait you don't have a condom on!" and I was like "oh yea that's right".

 

I decided to stick my fingers up there one last time to feel around inside.

 

I was expressing to her that I was not able to cum and she was like "hold up."

 

She got down on her knees, grabbed my penis while it was still hard, and she started giving me a handjob. Then immediately she stuck her mouth on my penis and starting giving me head.

 

(Later she said she enjoyed the blowjob more than anything).

 

I still was not able to cum for some reason. She got dressed again and I walked her down to her car. On the way down while we were on the elevator, she said for some reason after sex she felt like she needed to pee. I explained to her that it could of been a sign that she was about to squirt and the next time just let it out.

 

I got her to her car. Pinned her against the car and made out with her before she left. The she went home.

 

The next day we went to the amusement park together. She made me rid my fear of roller coasters. She made me ride the biggest one first. I screamed like a girl haha.

 

The whole day at the amusement park it was puppy love. I think I enjoyed that more than the sex itself. I held her hand the whole day. We sat down inside for a short time and we started talking about her bitchy friends. I was telling her not to let her friends put her down and was just giving her advice. And we just had fun all day long. I bought her food and we ate some good stuff.

 

I couldn't keep myself from not kissing her. Everytime I turned around I was kissing her head and forehead. As I kissed her she flinched and smiled real big and giggled in a high pitch voice.

 

I felt like I was in love with her. It was a surge of such a great feeling and euphoria I never felt with any girl before. I thought I found the perfect girl for me. I had the white night syndrome to the fullest extent. I never felt so happy.

 

It got towards the end of the day and she said she was not going to go back with me and instead she was going home. She expressed she did not want anything serious and my heart immediately sank and I just fell apart.

 

I started crying my eyes out like a freaking baby. I started to express that I cared for her and I gave my heart to her which she started to shed tears too. I hugged her one last time and we parted.

 

A few days go by and I was eager to text her. She expressed she was so happy to hear from me. She said she locked herself in her room and cried from days when we stopped talking.

 

We started to really talk again and she said she never cared for any other guy like she did me.

 

That made me feel good.

 

 

Then I made the most regretful and idiodic decision. I started to worry and not trust her and started to question her. It really threw her off.

 

Then she reaffirmed she did not want a relationship and I couldn't take no for an answer and I started doing really bizzare behaviors and started flipping out.

 

We then got into an argument about what if she got pregnant and she said she would get an abortion, I told her no and I was going to support her and our baby.

 

Then I started getting hot and cold with her and she decided enough was enough and cut complete contact with me and started avoiding me in every way possible. She even changed her number as I tried to make amends.

 

BTW, I was 20 the time. She was 16. But in her state she was legal age of consent for sexual activity. I don't know if it was her sister or her parents that contributed to it. But she did at one point say her parents would not approve of a relationship. She lives in Pennsylvania. I live in Tennessee.

 

Do you think I ruined it completely? Do you think she will ever have anything for me again?

[RoseWater]

This poor girl

[madjac74]

You may be legally ok to coerce this girl and probably on the same mental level but c'mon man! Find someone your own age like a nice crazy college girl!

[Lois_Griffin]

I stopped reading this childish hormonal nonsense when I got to your Penthouse Forum letter part. There was NO need to regale us with a fully detailed description of your inexperienced little hotel romp. This isn't the sex board.

 

You're the epitome of the cliché about a guy who falls in love with the first piece of a** he's ever gotten (so the saying goes - not my words). She's a little teenaged girl who lives a thousand miles away, why are you wasting your time?

 

You know what they call a virgin in Pennsyl-tucky? A girl who can out-run her brothers.

 

As someone else said, concentrate on the local girls instead of some little teenager from another state. That is such a dead end.

[d0nnivain]

I am a 21 year old guy

 

Then she reaffirmed she did not want a relationship and I couldn't take no for an answer and I started doing really bizzare behaviors and started flipping out.

 

We then got into an argument about what if she got pregnant and she said she would get an abortion, I told her no and I was going to support her and our baby.

 

Then I started getting hot and cold with her and she decided enough was enough and cut complete contact with me and started avoiding me in every way possible. She even changed her number as I tried to make amends.

 

 

 

Do you think I ruined it completely? Do you think she will ever have anything for me again?

 

 

Yes you have ruined it. Your bizarre behaviors & flipping out sent her packing. When she has to go so far as to change her phone # there is no hope. Leave her alone before you end up on the wrong side of a restraining order.

 

 

Since you are now 21, stick to women who are your age.

 

 

It's not like you could have taken her to her high school prom.

[loverage21]

Yes you have ruined it. Your bizarre behaviors & flipping out sent her packing. When she has to go so far as to change her phone # there is no hope. Leave her alone before you end up on the wrong side of a restraining order.

 

 

Since you are now 21, stick to women who are your age.

 

 

It's not like you could have taken her to her high school prom.

 

 

Actually. Haha now that you mentioned it. I talked to her at one point about asking her to prom.

[loverage21]

This poor girl

 

Poor girl? At one point she told me no other guy treated her as good (until I screwed everything up).

 

I drove through her town yesterday on a road trip thinking how much I miss her.

[craw]

Poor girl, because you did not pay attention to her needs at all and did whatever you wanted with her.

 

Also, learn to do oral. You barely showed her any effort and made no attempt to make her feel as good as she did for you.

[loverage21]

Poor girl, because you did not pay attention to her needs at all and did whatever you wanted with her.

 

Also, learn to do oral. You barely showed her any effort and made no attempt to make her feel as good as she did for you.

 

I wish I can go back and done things right. I wish I could just go back and win her heart.

 

Distance does not maim my life.