Author deadelvis Posted October 29, 2015 Author Share Posted October 29, 2015 (edited) I'm an middle aged woman and I hope she moves the "box" to a place where you can't find it to search through its contents! As an middle aged woman reading your thoughts on your girlfriends past I feel that you have not truly accepted your fears of what she may have done in her past. Usually if a person has a deal dealer and is being lied to that person would leave the situation. Your fear of what the lies means in how others view you is what I feel drives you even though nobody knows about her past. I don't really like the concept that I need to "accept my fears". Wouldn't accepting the truth make much more sense than accepting my fears? I'm afraid my girlfriend used to be a prostitute. But if she wasn't really a prostitute, then I don't want to spend the rest of my life struggling to accept that she was. That seems like a whole lot of stress over something which is merely imagined. I'd rather not lose sleep over something that doesn't exist. But at the same time, I'd rather not pretend everything is ok and convince myself that she wasn't a hooker either. That seems like an equally foolish assumption. I just want to know the truth and then proceed forward with that information, rather than living my life based on hunches or assumptions. And I think I deserve to know the truth. Nobody should be kept in the dark about something that significant. There are maybe 2 or 3 of her close friends who probably know the truth. There is one girl who I think is actually a prostitute herself and probably the one who got her into that world. But she doesn't even live in this state anymore. There's her "best friend"... he's a creepy "swinger guy" who literally sleeps with dozens of different women every month and fits the definition of being a "sex addict". I think she's told him everything, but I know he would never tell me anything. He wouldn't betray her trust. And there's one guy who was her long term FWB (10+ years) but they recently had a falling out and don't speak to each other. I'm still friends with him. I thought about asking him what he knows about her "old life". I'm sure he knows some things, but I really don't think she would have told him about working as an escort or call girl. So obviously I'm not worried about people knowing my GF was a hooker. It's been nearly impossible for me to find out if she was really a hooker or not. I doubt anyone else knows, certainly nobody in this town. Edited October 29, 2015 by deadelvis Link to post Share on other sites
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