I cant stop thinking of the breakup

[Macer]

Its been 4 months now still cant get over a breakup. random times i cry over her and at night i dream of us getting back together. I have a hard time trying to find joy in small things, what use to make me happy and forget my problems dont work anymore. I turned her off i guess with all my insecurities and me being very soft after that even though i was mad she was right that i am all those things. I feel worthless more than i ever felt before. She said that i wouldnt change and that it will come back again and i dont know if she is right. I cant shake off the feeling of severe depression i have. I try my best but it doesnt seem to work , i am hurting still so much even after these months i dont know if it will ever end. The environment that i work reminds me of her. I cant escape the thoughts of her it just pops right into my head, i cant be with friends i tried but i end up being sad at the end , i tried trying to have a crush on girl but the feeling is still there. I cry every time i think of what could have been and the good times that i didnt feel alone that i can open up to. I am having the hardest time yet in my life and i cant focus on moving on. My head gets tired from overthinking sometimes i just stare at work sometimes i am happy sometimes i am sad and i have found that at the end of the day most of the time i am sad. I feel sos worthless because she texted me only that she just want to be friends i know i messed up really bad by annoying her with so many questions and my insecurities and my softness and me having to be babied all the time, i didnt realize those things until she told me makes me wonder how could i have not read the signs. I never really though that someone would like me and yet her i am messed up the whole thing, i just wish she ended it in person i really wanted to see her even though she didnt love me anymore... i felt that the things i did the relation was a worthlesss to her, i didnt even do anything bad nor did i meant to , if i only knew what she felt i wish she told it sooner before pilling it up and holding grudges against me

[TheLoveBelow92]

Its been 4 months now still cant get over a breakup. random times i cry over her and at night i dream of us getting back together.

Just hitting the 4 month mark myself soon in similar circumstances, I was the same as you got my heart shattered by someone I thought cared enough about me to never let that happen but with time people change and circumstances. its no ones fault these things happen. have you cut contact with her its the best and only way to truly move on, I had to as well even tho I never wanted to, its sucks but i believe these things make you a stronger person in the long run

[Thegreatfrazzle]

At 4 months I was just as bad as I was 3 days after the break up, but as soon as I hit 6 months I was absolutely fine. I cannot explain why or how I was feeling that much better, it just happens. You will be fine, just go no contact and see it out. I remember panicking after months of feeling bad that I would never get better, but your body just goes into self preservation mode, and you pick yourself up and move on.

 

This will make you stronger. You will know how to deal with this in the future, because it will happen again, most relationships fail, just one of life's tough lessons.