jeha1995 Posted October 28, 2015 Share Posted October 28, 2015 This is a long story. When I was in high school I met a girl which eventually I developed a huge crush on her. All my senior year I was crazy for this girl but she had a boyfriend so I decided to cut her off because she was doing me no good. We didn't share moments, or laughs or anything and when we were in person it was awkward, we didn't even had any friends in common, it was a stupid crush but a huge one. We only texted every day. Then I met another girl but things went south pretty fast because I still had feelings for the first girl. We graduated and went to different colleges, same town but different colleges. There was still something that attracted me to this girl, so I decided to remain her friend because I had hope. Then we had a huge fight because she did something that hurt me a lot, I was really screwed up and she told me to stopped talking to her and I decided it was time to let her go for good. We didn't talk for about a month, I was getting over her and starting to live my life again without the stress of thinking about her. We started talking but this time, I felt that she was just an ordinary girl, a normal friend, I didn't see her as the best girl anymore. My feelings were completely gone and after a year, we were still good friends. She got a new boyfriend and I went on with my life but I was happy living my single life. A few months ago, after two years of not having a crush with anybody, I started hanging out with this amazing girl thanks to my best friend, which he is her sister's boyfriend. At the time we started hanging out, she had a long distance boyfriend, so I did not had any intentions with this girl. We started hanging out more and more, she goes to my same college. We became very close together, we always went out in group, the four of us, her sister, my bestfriend, her, and I. We always went to the movie theater, to eat, and we also spent our breaks together. We developed a strong friendship over time the four of us but I felt that she had something special. Things started to change, I noticed her very different around me, like a little flirty, so one day I asked her out and everything went perfect. We started talking on the phone, and holding hands and hugging etc. I was very comfortable around her and she was the first girl I ever brought to my house. I invited her once and we spent all afternoon talking about our lives and we developed a very strong bond. I started to like her a lot. Then I told my best friend about that, that I liked her a lot and he told me to wait, because she had a long distance boyfriend. Later she went on a trip with her sister, they visited her boyfriend for a week and I was devastated, I felt really sad and wanted to avoid her and everything but we kept texting while she was away. She was away for like a month and I was afraid that when she came back, things were not going to be the same so I wanted to become distant. When she came back, the opposite happened. We became even more close, spending more time together, talking more and going out more the two of us. I noticed that she wasn't talking with her boyfriend anymore and was becoming more attached to me, but still I wasn't sure. We spent countless hours on the phone, she was hugging me even more, she sat on my lap, when we watched movies she was always leaning or sleeping on my shoulder, she always asked me to watch TV Series with her, we always hold hands while watching movies or tv series, she cooked me and brought food for me almost everyday in college and she even took care of me after my wisdom teeth extraction, it felt good, her attention felt good. I opened myself to her and told her everything, I told her about the first girl in highschool who screwed me up and we remained just as friends and she asked me if I still had feelings for her and told her that no and that I wasn't talking to that girl because of a fight we had and she blamed it on me and told her that we wouldn't talk for a while and still I hadn't seen that girl for like a year and a half.We always hang out in our small group, and we always had fun, it was a nice friendship that we developed over time. I started inviting her to my family events and she was always pleased to go with me, I even invited her to my brother's wedding. A day before the wedding, I invited her to my house to chill. That day we were on my bed cuddling, and I started giving her kisses on her cheeks, forehead and all around her face. I gave her a kiss in her mouth without thinking, and she kissed me back and that was the first time we ever kissed. I felt joy, happiness and butterflies on my stomach. We didn't talk about it in the moment, during the wedding we kissed again and even the day after. The third day after our kiss we where on her house and talked about our feelings. She told me to take things slow, because she didn't want to mess up things and to make things right, because she wanted to be with me. I asked her about her boyfriend and she told me that they had broken up a week after her trip. I told her that yes, that we were going to take things steady to make our relationship a good one in the future. The following two weeks after that were amazing, we started acting more like a couple and she told her friends about us, we went out more, we hold hands in public and she started giving me kisses in public around everybody. One night we slept around 6am talking on the phone and I asked her if there was something that she was jealous of and she told me that no, that she only felt jealous when I talked to her about the girl I went to high school with that I had a huge crush. I told her that was in the past, that now she (the current girl) was the only one that had my heart. It was a nice feeling, I really liked this girl, my family liked her a lot too, she met almost everyone in my family and also I met hers. Our feelings came out unexpectedly, everything happened out of nowhere, out of a nice friendship and that is what made it better. She is a bit bossy and cranky and one day she asked me if she was bossy and I told her that yes and I told her that I met her that way and that way I started to like her and I expected no change from her. One day I got mad because she told me that we were going to make a dessert together. That day I called her at night and asked her if we were going to see each other that night and told me to visit her. When I arrived I saw that she finished almost all of the dessert and that my best friend helped her because he was there waiting for her sister and I got mad. When everyone left I told her that I was mad at her because she told me that we were going to make the dessert together and that she was almost done when I got there. She told me that I didn't respond to her text, I told her that I was asleep and that she should've called me or something. She apologized and things got fixed. Things went south because I bought her a cupcake, and gave it to her and a friend of mine told me that my best friend ate almost all of her cupcake and that she only ate a piece. I called her late that night I found about that and I told her I was mad at her because I bought the cupcake for her, not for him, and that I wanted it to be special for her. She got mad at me because she told me I was trying to control her, she told me that I was telling her not to share the things I gave her and she didn't want that. She was not ready for a relationship because of that, because she didn't want to give explanations to anybody, she didn't want anybody telling her what to do and who to talk to, etc. For me she went out of context. We almost fixed things that night and apologized the next day because I sensed that she didn't want anything with me anymore so I asked her for another chance to prove to her that I am no psycho, possessive and controlling person. She told me that she was going to think about it because she was afraid that it was going to happened again. After that, we continued talking normal for the rest of the day. At night she asked me if she could come over to my house and I accepted. The girl I went to high school who screwed me over texted me to ask me about something and we talked chill that day and only that, we hadn't talked for months with this girl. She came over and I was awkward about our fight and everything she told but later on we acted normal and silly again. I was on my phone texting a lot with my brother about some important business and I was keeping eye on my phone every while. She asked me for my phone and I gave it to her and she started texting her cousing because her phone was out of credit. Before she left, we gave each other a huge hug for about 5 minutes and after that, I checked my phone for signs of any text from my brother but no, her cousing texted again and I gave her my phone so that she could respond. While she was using it, I heard that I got a text so I told her "let me check on that" because I thought it was my brother but no, it was a text from high school girl. It was nothing important so I just closed it, and she saw all that and I gave her back my phone. I wasn't aware of what happened at this moment. She left and we said goodbye normally. After an hour I tried calling her and she hanged up on me three times. She texted me saying that she had homework to do and that she couldn't talk. I found that weird because we always talked on the phone while she was studying or doing homework. I sensed her very strange and I knew she was mad because of something. Since I am not clingy I just wished her good luck with her homework. The next couple of days she was very weird so I decided to call her so that we could meet up. I picked her up and started talking in my car. I started to apologize about the cupcake incident and she told me that there is another problem going on. She told me I was hiding her stuff and I was confused about that. She told me about the text message, and that I was acting weird in my house and all jumpy and I tried to explain her the situation. I got out my phone and I wanted to show her the conversation and that it nothing was going on. She didn't want to take a look at it. She asked me "why are you still talking with her?" and I told her that she was just asking me something, she was not believing me. I told her that I loved her and that I was'nt hiding anything, she has access to my computer and phone and she knows all my passwords but no, she told me "I don't believe you anymore and I have already made up my mind" and she left. I waited a couple of days to text her to explain things again, so make things up and at least recover our nice friendship that we once had because she is the only girl that has made a great impact on my life and I wouldn't do anything to hurt her and if there is any small piece of her that wanted to fix things. She responded with a long text, telling me that destroyed her trust, that I hurt her and let her down. That I never told her about how me and highschool girl were talking again and that she wouldn't have done something similar and that our friendship was not going to be the same as before because trust takes effort and time to build but only a second to be destroyed and she even told me "I hope one day you and her can be together, because it looks like you still like her". She even told me that we should stopped talking for a while. I tried to explain everything again but it's useless, I told her that thanks for all the moments we spent together and for making me happy and that it was never my intention to hurt her, and I apologise for breaking her trust. I am devastated, it is unfair, I lost the best thing that has ever happened to me and I do not know what to do, she rarely forgives people and I am scared. What hurts me the most is that we even lost our nice friendship and it is never going to be the same... Link to post Share on other sites
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