ashley.lucas Posted October 28, 2015 Share Posted October 28, 2015 Okay this is really embarassing, but i suffer with anxiety and ocd intrusive thoughts. So me and my boyfriend had been going out for 3 years (currently trying to get him back) but i need help. In the 3 years we had been together i had been a lousy bad girlfriend just terrible i even liked his best friend at one point (never pursued it did nothing about didnt even flirt) god i feel awful i didnt even realize how bad i was. My boyfriend and i broke up in may and broke up again in August (it was my ocd and anxiety) but i couldnt take how bad i was and it would feed on my mind 24 hours a day. My mind started convincing me I liked his best friend again (which i dont) im really in love with my byfriend. But the reason I am seeking opinions and help is because when my mind was so bad with intrusive thoughts and anxiety I fell asleep one night and i had a dream, a sex dream about his best friend (but i would never ever have sex with his best friend at all i would never do that to my boyfriend and im really not that kind of person) but i had a sex dream about him and it was weird it was like i was asleep but awake at the same time i googled it and its called lucid dreaming. But the reason i feel so guilty and bad is because I orgasmed and when i was i was like thrusting when i was half asleep and half awake it felt so real and im so ashamed because i feel i acted on it even though it was a dream but i would never do that in real life. I think I just thrusted because I was having an orgasm. Ugh I feel so bad what do i do? I don't want to tell my boyfriend but i feel guilty. I know dreams dont mean you really want to and i dont want to and i never would. Link to post Share on other sites
Guyouthere Posted October 28, 2015 Share Posted October 28, 2015 dreams most often represent unresolved subconscious feelings and thoughts. Because it was an intense dream, it says that you have intense and unresolved feelings about it all. I went through this same thing with my ex wife. I had a period of intense and lucid dreaming about her and the events concerning the divorce and her excessive cheating. The dreams ended, and I still do not have them to this day. Once you are healed, they will go away. Your mind heals itself through dreams. My very last dream of her was very intense, and it involved vivid colors and intense emotions in the dream. Let your mind work on itself. Link to post Share on other sites
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