Is this normal behavior that I have given up on trying to make friends/socialzing

[Bobbi7]

In the past, I would try to make friends, I would strike up a conversation with them, be friendly, share stores, etc, etc. Only to realize they weren't interested in even being friends with me. I would have to initiate everything. They never invited me anywhere, never asked me to tag along with their other friends, I did small favors with them. All this damn rejection. Its all one-sided bs. Maybe I'm not "cool" enough, not funny enough, have rich friends, have a hot husband, its like all they care is what benefits them, am I right? And meetup groups are a JOKE. I met one person from meetup, she reached out to me, so since then, I've been initialing 100% of the time, her texts were half-ass, like, "I meant to text you, I saw that I texted you, I forgot to get back to you.." I just give up even trying to socialize with people. Isn't socializing the main stepping stone to making friends? Why, even talk to people if there is no guarantee of a friendship?